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We fight and we cry, then we fight and we kiss, then we fight and we make up, we make love, and fight some more. Never in my adventures as a human have I been in a relationship like this before. From the most simple event in our mundane lives, some trigger is pressed that brings out a mix of emotions so volatile and so previously buried in my psyche that letting them out is an adventure in itself. Sometimes that adventure is wrought with difficulties and verbal traps, other times exploring that emotion brings me closer to my spiritual path and I walk away glowing and happy.
Other times I walk away sad.
I can't really remember walking away neutral. Nothing about our relationship makes me feel neutral. It is a ride filled with passion, love and wonder, mixed with anger, fear, and worry.
Not to mention confusion, my current emotion.
I am new to this whole scenario. I've never had someone else in my life before. I've never hurt anyone else with my little personal nuisances that seemed previously to be so harmless before. I've never wanted to be completely honest, blunt or open with someone else before.
I've never had to learn to share my mind with someone. It's scary, liberating, and wonderful.
Television and the movies never made it out to be this hard, or this rewarding. Damn TV.
Other times I walk away sad.
I can't really remember walking away neutral. Nothing about our relationship makes me feel neutral. It is a ride filled with passion, love and wonder, mixed with anger, fear, and worry.
Not to mention confusion, my current emotion.
I am new to this whole scenario. I've never had someone else in my life before. I've never hurt anyone else with my little personal nuisances that seemed previously to be so harmless before. I've never wanted to be completely honest, blunt or open with someone else before.
I've never had to learn to share my mind with someone. It's scary, liberating, and wonderful.
Television and the movies never made it out to be this hard, or this rewarding. Damn TV.