is my reality based completely based on my perception?
I have been effected by the actions of others recently, this has never been like me. I used to be quite the floaty type, I could roll with any blow and laugh about it. I feel like I have devolved.
The sort of shit I used to laugh at others about, is it really that big of an issue. I guess it just is when you start to get close to people that cause these issues. I wish it was easy to just cut yourself off from some people because that is what I would do. I could but I can't help this awful human attribute called emotion.
Do me a favor and comment with some of your flaws,
here are mine:
I am completely conceited when it comes to my intellect, it has brought me to the point of a feeling of superiority over a lot of people. It is rare for me to look up to someone unless they are much older. I can actually think of the names of people I consider equal on my hands.
I have huge trust issues, maybe it comes from my feeling of superiority, but I have a hard time trusting anyone. Three weeks ago I could only name two or three people that I trusted and now I only have one and that's my Ma. I don't think anyone should expect me to trust them, people are always doing things and they keep it behind someone's back. I am completely insecure, but I don't think it's my fault. Since I got into school I've seen kids do sick shit to each other and I have never been able to get comfortable in the whole scene. I am not perfect though, I to have broken trust. But I don't want to do that anymore and I won't, I want to be a good friend even if I think i'm better then you.
My mind. Is this shit all what's in my head? Are people untrustworthy because that's how I have set up people in my mind? It seems though that backstabbing has become a social norm, but maybe only because I've been thinking about it so much? I feel like I'm so smart and I can pick out those who are prone to bring negativity to my life and the type of person I would not like to waste my time with. Perhaps this works sometimes but recently I have found out I can be hugely wrong about a person, I mean I expect to slightly wrong about some people but I guess I can be way off base. At this point I am thinking of someone specific but I won't name him. I just hope I haven't kept anyone out of my life that could of been a great friend.
The sort of shit I used to laugh at others about, is it really that big of an issue. I guess it just is when you start to get close to people that cause these issues. I wish it was easy to just cut yourself off from some people because that is what I would do. I could but I can't help this awful human attribute called emotion.
Do me a favor and comment with some of your flaws,
here are mine:
I am completely conceited when it comes to my intellect, it has brought me to the point of a feeling of superiority over a lot of people. It is rare for me to look up to someone unless they are much older. I can actually think of the names of people I consider equal on my hands.
I have huge trust issues, maybe it comes from my feeling of superiority, but I have a hard time trusting anyone. Three weeks ago I could only name two or three people that I trusted and now I only have one and that's my Ma. I don't think anyone should expect me to trust them, people are always doing things and they keep it behind someone's back. I am completely insecure, but I don't think it's my fault. Since I got into school I've seen kids do sick shit to each other and I have never been able to get comfortable in the whole scene. I am not perfect though, I to have broken trust. But I don't want to do that anymore and I won't, I want to be a good friend even if I think i'm better then you.
My mind. Is this shit all what's in my head? Are people untrustworthy because that's how I have set up people in my mind? It seems though that backstabbing has become a social norm, but maybe only because I've been thinking about it so much? I feel like I'm so smart and I can pick out those who are prone to bring negativity to my life and the type of person I would not like to waste my time with. Perhaps this works sometimes but recently I have found out I can be hugely wrong about a person, I mean I expect to slightly wrong about some people but I guess I can be way off base. At this point I am thinking of someone specific but I won't name him. I just hope I haven't kept anyone out of my life that could of been a great friend.