Nov 13, 2015 22:21
How real, now, the Curse is. What shape is this ?
To be relegated to shadows. The other half of this trip has been a showering of gifts, opportunities, and love from desert-artifice-family.
To know the role I fulfilled was made redundant? I don't care, a network's a network. That one is out.
I'm the forgetful one. There's barely a smattering of shared memories, it's all an emotional palimpsest. I can't erase the emotion, but maybe for others it's different?
What's worst is dealing with lateral talk. Knowing my face, they would see that, misinterpret it, and then from there it has a negative return value.
So what is the correct course in all of this? How to make this productive? Relegate, entertain, readjust course and push on. If the opportunity shows, take a bigger wad.