I'm goin' crazy without you...
I'm not in the best of moods right now. Even though I had a pretty good day. Yesterday was a bundle of fun as well. I'm just feeling really melancholy and lonely without Ruka... There is a line from Michiru's prologue (it's uh, basically an "image" poem for Sailor Neptune - hehe) that says "Even when you were with many friends, you were always alone". I just really felt like that today. I mean, I was with some of my best friends but I just felt so...damn lonely... I feel like there is some huge void inside me.. It feels so weird, I mean, I have been with Ruka for a year and 7 months now...I've never loved anyone so much, nor felt like anyone understands or knows me better...but I've never even seen her face to face. Being alone all the time really sucks. I probably would go totally insane without such good friends around (you know who you are.. ^_^). Well, I feel a little bit better now... I suppose no one could be sad while listening to cute Megumi Ogata songs... I shall now tell of the happenings of the past two days. Lessee.. on Wednesday, Ben-nii came over at about 12:30 pm to watch anime and do other things. I really had a lot of fun - Ben is such a cool and nice guy. We watched Golden Boy (ah! I love that series! It's not only ecchi - it's actually good, and has substance! yes!) and the Big O (I also love that series ^_^) and hm..what else.. oh yeah, some Janne Da Arc music videos. ^.^ Oh yeah, and Gackt's Papa Lapped a Pap Lopped video - hah! I told you Gackt could dance. ^_^ The lyrics to that song are so silly, haha. I was like, "Don't read them! >.<" Even though the subtitles were like, huge and glowing on the video. x-x We had sushi for lunch - yay! Ben liked the drawing I did for him as a thank you for driving me places and being cool in general. That made me haaap~pi! ^_^ I had a good time drawing said picture. I wrote a bunch of stuff in Japanese on it, and I still need to translate it for him. ^^;; I sorta assumed he could figure it out.. oh well. ^.^ Today I was like, "Were you able to find out what it said..?" and he said "No - I can't read that!" or something to that extent. Hehe. Oh yeah, we also listened to the entire Mitch Hedberg CD - hah! I love Mitch Hedberg. Heh, little side note here, I have these little headphones that go in yer ears and since I have lots of hair, it's hard for people to tell I'm wearing them, so they just start talking to me thinking I will be able to hear them. It's usually pretty funny. I generally just smile and nod, and do a thumbs-up. >D I just did that to my dad. ^.^ Anyway, oh yeah, Mitch Hedberg = hilarious. ^_^ Ok, that was pretty much yesterday. Ben, if yer reading this, I had a super time hanging out with you!! ^_^ As for today, hm, I went to work from 8-12, and Ben picked me up, so I didn't have to take the filthy stink-machine home! (that is what I call the bus ^.^) Shoooooo, I got picked up, then we went to go pick up Soreath (you guys are getting the really short version here o-o) then, (I think I am getting the order right here...) we went to Ben's mom's house to trade cars and for some other reasons including the fact that I had to pee, and then we went to Melinda. Then..I think we got Lizzy. I'm kinda forgetting lots of details, but I guess that's not *too* important..Everyone reading this is probably skipping over this part anyway. We went to the Politi library and I showed Lizzy and Soreath which CDs I remember labeling. hehe. There were fish there too, so I sat and watched them for awhile. =) They were very beautiful. ^_^ Then we were confused as to what to do. Also, we were running out of room in the car so we put Lizzy in Alexis' house, went to Melinda's, dumped me, Mel and Soreath out, then Ben went to get fetch Lizzy and Alexis, and also laptop with which to watch anime. Soo, finally we were all together at Melinda's house - yay! ^_^ We watched Golden Boy (dubbed - not my cuppa tea, but ohh well) and like, I started to not feel too well.. It was really hot, and dark and I hadn't eaten in awhile, and it was about then I started feeling ..ya know, like I was when I started typing this entry. I had been sitting on the couch, so then I went to lie on the floor. I napped on and off throughout one episode of Golden Boy. Natuarally my sweet friends were a bit concerned and helped to make me feel better, which included Ben and I going to get pizza and hair dye. After pizza and ice cream, I felt a lot better, we watched one more ep of Golden Boy, and then it was time to go home. And i remain there to this moment. ^^ Oh yeah, we also watched the Brak show. >D I'm really not doing much right now. I'm glad Ruka is online. ^_^ I'm listening to Click B, a really great Korean band! =D Whee, they are so awesome!! ^_^ I suppose it is time to post this rather lengthy entry. Oh yeah, a certain someone told me they were scanning my entries and their name caught their eye...that is, they weren't even bothering to read all my hard-typed entries. ;_; So....DARCY! >P