Do you believe in magic?
I think the only way to describe whats been going on lately is to say WOW. I've realized that I'm still in "like" with an ex-bfand that I think I remain the most unchanged person I've known. It seems like everyone I know has had a complete transformation since the last time I saw them, and I find myself a little unsettled by all that has been going on around me. It's like one of those scenes in a movie or show or whatev where the background is like moving super fast and the main person is just standing still. That's exactly how I feel right now. I'm the person at the stand still and everyone I know is rapidly moving around me. It's like I'm stuck.
So over Winter Break I got to hang with Ryan and Bryce and even Molly. That was pretty cool...especially the whole Bryce thing. :) He's the guy in case you couldn't tell. So I realized I liked him again, but I think he kinda just laughed it off-- so what- if anything- happens there I dunno what it'll be. I can understand if he's like "Ew. Go away." though. Haha. I'm used to rejection, but God it would be awesome if something ended up working for me. It's been so long since I can say I've been 100% happy, and while that mite not get me there, it'll damn sure help. I guess all I can do is cross my fingers and hope something comes from it. Maybe once he sees that I'm a goddess on my knees. Haha. *Inside Joke*
I was able to have a real conversation with Molly last nite, and I gotta say, it was refreshing to realize that someone is going through what I am. Molly has always been as close to perfect as I can imagine forever, and I've always been so jealous. Sometimes I find myself wonderng why someone like her would even WANT to be friends with someone so uncool like me. She said some really cool things last nite though, and while to some it may have been a let down to realize she wasnt all she's cracked up to be, it made her even more perfect to me. Sheesh, I sound like a stalker.
So on that soul-bearing little note, I think I'll wind this up in true Sarah fashion. Later bey-atches. Remember, bye bye and buy bonds.
To know me is to love me...and you know you love me.
*SHOUT OUTS*
Molly-- I love you more than you could ever know. You have been there for everything that has ever happened to me that has been important. Hell, you were the only one to show up for my Open House for Graduation. I owe a lot to you. You helped mold me into the person I am today, and I can't thank you enough. And I have faith that you'll magic will come back. At least I hope so. Work on that. Haha. :) I'll always have your back, so when everyone else seems to be gone, I'm always here, no matter the circumstances. Regardless of how it may seem to you, you and I are closer that you and Ashley and our history proves it. I'm just glad that you can finally trust me.
Bryce-- I *heart* you. You are one of the realest people I have ever met, and that's what makes you so effing cool to me. Panackes WILL be provided next time. I'm a goddess on my knees. Ride 'em Cowboy. ;)
Baby Bird-- I love ya, and I'm sorry if I have to leave you next year. I hope everything stays cool for you. Later babe.
Shanna-- I LOVE MY BOSOM BUDDY!!!!!
Steph-- YAY FOR 3 KITTIES!!! Lana got coned. PUB OPEN. Is this some sort of game...? haha. Milkshake....ITS A BIG FISH.
*~QUOTES~*
"Mistakes were made, hearts were broken, harsh lessons learned, but all of that has receded into fond memory now. How does it happen? Why are we so quick to forget the bad and romanticize the good? Maybe it's because we need to believe that the time we spent together actually meant something, that we were there for each other in a time in our lives that defined us all, a time in our lives that we will never forget. I can't swear this is exactly how it happened. But this is how it felt."
~Joey, "Dawson's Creek"
"For all sad words of tounge and pen, the saddest are these, 'What might have been.'"
~John Greenleaf Whitter
"I have seen yesterday, I love today, I am not afraid of tomorrow."
~?
When my pass came in
You dropped the ball
It didn’t change the way I feel
And I was wishin I’d break down your walls
The kiss will know if lips stay still
There is a line I crossed
Then when you missed, I lost
Im not a loser
Girl, you know that I’ll be back again
My dear, I went for the steal
Maybe it was rushed
Oh, my crush
I gotta crush
I suppose that I could hold it in
But you excite my every cell
Sources say that senses are your friend
My senses say that I should tell
…You that im not ashamed
you might just feel the same
but you have to try it
if you’re ever really gonna know
my dear, i went for the steal
maybe it was rushed
oh, my crush
I gotta crush
I want to
I need to
I have to
have you…
youre so much
to touch
Girl youre too much and I cant control it
You got me all over the road
My dear
I went for the steal
Maybe it was rushed
Oh, my crush
Damagin' my soul
You blew me off but I don’t mind
I just get better with time
So do you x3
Oh, my crush…
~"Crush" Gavin Degraw
Would you be my hey
How do you feel
Would you be my angel with sex appeal
Would you be my sweet taste of caramel
My kiss and tell
~"Kiss and Tell" Michael Tolcher
So over Winter Break I got to hang with Ryan and Bryce and even Molly. That was pretty cool...especially the whole Bryce thing. :) He's the guy in case you couldn't tell. So I realized I liked him again, but I think he kinda just laughed it off-- so what- if anything- happens there I dunno what it'll be. I can understand if he's like "Ew. Go away." though. Haha. I'm used to rejection, but God it would be awesome if something ended up working for me. It's been so long since I can say I've been 100% happy, and while that mite not get me there, it'll damn sure help. I guess all I can do is cross my fingers and hope something comes from it. Maybe once he sees that I'm a goddess on my knees. Haha. *Inside Joke*
I was able to have a real conversation with Molly last nite, and I gotta say, it was refreshing to realize that someone is going through what I am. Molly has always been as close to perfect as I can imagine forever, and I've always been so jealous. Sometimes I find myself wonderng why someone like her would even WANT to be friends with someone so uncool like me. She said some really cool things last nite though, and while to some it may have been a let down to realize she wasnt all she's cracked up to be, it made her even more perfect to me. Sheesh, I sound like a stalker.
So on that soul-bearing little note, I think I'll wind this up in true Sarah fashion. Later bey-atches. Remember, bye bye and buy bonds.
To know me is to love me...and you know you love me.
*SHOUT OUTS*
Molly-- I love you more than you could ever know. You have been there for everything that has ever happened to me that has been important. Hell, you were the only one to show up for my Open House for Graduation. I owe a lot to you. You helped mold me into the person I am today, and I can't thank you enough. And I have faith that you'll magic will come back. At least I hope so. Work on that. Haha. :) I'll always have your back, so when everyone else seems to be gone, I'm always here, no matter the circumstances. Regardless of how it may seem to you, you and I are closer that you and Ashley and our history proves it. I'm just glad that you can finally trust me.
Bryce-- I *heart* you. You are one of the realest people I have ever met, and that's what makes you so effing cool to me. Panackes WILL be provided next time. I'm a goddess on my knees. Ride 'em Cowboy. ;)
Baby Bird-- I love ya, and I'm sorry if I have to leave you next year. I hope everything stays cool for you. Later babe.
Shanna-- I LOVE MY BOSOM BUDDY!!!!!
Steph-- YAY FOR 3 KITTIES!!! Lana got coned. PUB OPEN. Is this some sort of game...? haha. Milkshake....ITS A BIG FISH.
*~QUOTES~*
"Mistakes were made, hearts were broken, harsh lessons learned, but all of that has receded into fond memory now. How does it happen? Why are we so quick to forget the bad and romanticize the good? Maybe it's because we need to believe that the time we spent together actually meant something, that we were there for each other in a time in our lives that defined us all, a time in our lives that we will never forget. I can't swear this is exactly how it happened. But this is how it felt."
~Joey, "Dawson's Creek"
"For all sad words of tounge and pen, the saddest are these, 'What might have been.'"
~John Greenleaf Whitter
"I have seen yesterday, I love today, I am not afraid of tomorrow."
~?
When my pass came in
You dropped the ball
It didn’t change the way I feel
And I was wishin I’d break down your walls
The kiss will know if lips stay still
There is a line I crossed
Then when you missed, I lost
Im not a loser
Girl, you know that I’ll be back again
My dear, I went for the steal
Maybe it was rushed
Oh, my crush
I gotta crush
I suppose that I could hold it in
But you excite my every cell
Sources say that senses are your friend
My senses say that I should tell
…You that im not ashamed
you might just feel the same
but you have to try it
if you’re ever really gonna know
my dear, i went for the steal
maybe it was rushed
oh, my crush
I gotta crush
I want to
I need to
I have to
have you…
youre so much
to touch
Girl youre too much and I cant control it
You got me all over the road
My dear
I went for the steal
Maybe it was rushed
Oh, my crush
Damagin' my soul
You blew me off but I don’t mind
I just get better with time
So do you x3
Oh, my crush…
~"Crush" Gavin Degraw
Would you be my hey
How do you feel
Would you be my angel with sex appeal
Would you be my sweet taste of caramel
My kiss and tell
~"Kiss and Tell" Michael Tolcher