Dedicated to my favorite Lambda....
Ok, Ima start this entry by saying WOW. What a wild couple of weeks it's been. The most important news of all the drama encompassing my life is that Zach and I broke up. Long story, and those who should know aboot all of it do, but I'll provide the Sparknotes version for the rest of ya. :) So basically here's what went down: I had the most wonderful weekend when Lambda had their annual Mardi Gras party two weekends ago, but after it I had a lot of thoughts going on in my mind. I came to college to find myself, rite? Well I began to realize that I was relying too much on the security of my past through Zach, and that was really eating away at me. It was like a nagging voice in the back of my head. Suffice to say, he picked up on this and needed reassurance that everything was 100% perfect between us, and I just couldn't bring myself to do that because it woulda been a straight up lie. So everything was a lil shaky for the rest of the week, but we still hung out over Valentines Day (well the wkend before, but oh well) and by the time I came back to school everything was for the most part back to normal. This is where things begin to get a little dramatic and everything went to hell. On Mon. nite Shanna and Amanda and I were watching a flick on my comp. and to get Zach to stop talking to me on Yahoo! I told him I was on the fone with my mum...which admittedly was a bad move bc he called my mum. Yup, he was definately checkin up on me-- regardless of whether he realized it or not. That pissed me off to NO end esp since he kinda had a dbl standard regarding what I was sposta do. It was kinda like he was allowed to do whatev and I was expected to stay a hermit on the very few weekends he didnt come down. It was like he didnt trust or respect me-- it hurt my feelings more than anything else, and we broke up bc of it. I was really upset aboot it, but then I chilled out a lil bit and began to realize that no matter how shitty the circumstances were, it was kinda like I got to begin the search for myself all over again. Now I'm not the taken one and can have fun w/Shanna and Amanda without the little voice in the back of my head. Am I happy? Am I sad? I think the jury's still out on that one, but I'll letcha know. All I do know for sure is that I think it was for the best... who knows what will happen next? Certainly not me, but I'm ready to find out. "...I'm ready, come and find me, I'm not gonna hide got the sun on my side..."
So onto the next. I can't wait til Winter break...I definately need a break, as I imagine every1 here does. I'm tryin my hardset to do better this semester as far as classes go bc I disappointed myself last term, so I need the week to catch up. What a fun filled break. ...Not so much. Hmm... so not a lot is goin on... BUT on the up and up, I got put into the smart group in Beauty!!! Yay for me and mucho thanks to Doc Hudson for teaching me how to write those 3 years in high school! :) Molly seems to be goin through the same stuff I was/kinda still am going thru regarding school. I actually have a completed USI form in my desk. Not too sure if I'll mail it though. I mean I'll get to be with a person I can't live without, but I'm not entirely sure I can just leave all the ppl here... a few people in particular, but one main one. Whodda thunk it? Haha.
So Amanda and I are totally obsessed with the movie The Notebook. Sigh for Ryan Gossling. Welp, I gotta say that that's all for now. Sorry it's not too exciting, but I'm a boring person. Oh well...
You know how it goes. Bye bye or buy bonds (how lame is it that my dad got me saying that). Mucho love to those who give it back. To those who don't... well you know. Later biotches. Leave me love.
To know me is to love me...and you know you love me.
**SHOUT OUTS**
Amanda-- Although you're not the MAIN person for staying here youre def a close second. I love ya and ure def my best friend here. Don't know what I'd do without you. And without me u wouldnt have ne1 to carry ure ass back to the dorms. ;) HEINEY!!!!
Teffie-- I miss u. What would YOU do without me on the days y'all have shit food? Lana got coned. LLAMA FACE. PUB OPEN.
Molly-- Even though u never gimme shout outs I still love ya and I got ure back when no1 else seems to. 3/4 best friends never leave.
Tia-- I *heart* you. Love Tim Love Tim. Random: Abney Haffner still looks like...well Abney! haha.
Greg-- You're my favorite. Thanks for being so cool all the time. I *heart* you. Next time=tounge. Hahaha. :) You know what I'm talking aboot.
~*QUOTES*~
"I think we dream so we don't have to be apart so long. If we're in each other's dreams, we can be together forever."
~Calvin and Hobbes
"...And then there's love. I want you to love to the tips of your fingers, and when you find that love, wherever you find it, whoever you choose, don't run away from it. But you don't have to chase after it either. You just be patient, and it'll come to you, I promis. You don't be afraid, and remember, to love is to live."
~Jen, "Dawson's Creek"
"If someone doesn't believe in me, I can't believe in them."
~Andie, "Pretty In Pink"
"Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop."
~Anon.
"Whoever shall not die for love is dead meat."
~JRM
"That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time."
~Never Been Kissed
So onto the next. I can't wait til Winter break...I definately need a break, as I imagine every1 here does. I'm tryin my hardset to do better this semester as far as classes go bc I disappointed myself last term, so I need the week to catch up. What a fun filled break. ...Not so much. Hmm... so not a lot is goin on... BUT on the up and up, I got put into the smart group in Beauty!!! Yay for me and mucho thanks to Doc Hudson for teaching me how to write those 3 years in high school! :) Molly seems to be goin through the same stuff I was/kinda still am going thru regarding school. I actually have a completed USI form in my desk. Not too sure if I'll mail it though. I mean I'll get to be with a person I can't live without, but I'm not entirely sure I can just leave all the ppl here... a few people in particular, but one main one. Whodda thunk it? Haha.
So Amanda and I are totally obsessed with the movie The Notebook. Sigh for Ryan Gossling. Welp, I gotta say that that's all for now. Sorry it's not too exciting, but I'm a boring person. Oh well...
You know how it goes. Bye bye or buy bonds (how lame is it that my dad got me saying that). Mucho love to those who give it back. To those who don't... well you know. Later biotches. Leave me love.
To know me is to love me...and you know you love me.
**SHOUT OUTS**
Amanda-- Although you're not the MAIN person for staying here youre def a close second. I love ya and ure def my best friend here. Don't know what I'd do without you. And without me u wouldnt have ne1 to carry ure ass back to the dorms. ;) HEINEY!!!!
Teffie-- I miss u. What would YOU do without me on the days y'all have shit food? Lana got coned. LLAMA FACE. PUB OPEN.
Molly-- Even though u never gimme shout outs I still love ya and I got ure back when no1 else seems to. 3/4 best friends never leave.
Tia-- I *heart* you. Love Tim Love Tim. Random: Abney Haffner still looks like...well Abney! haha.
Greg-- You're my favorite. Thanks for being so cool all the time. I *heart* you. Next time=tounge. Hahaha. :) You know what I'm talking aboot.
~*QUOTES*~
"I think we dream so we don't have to be apart so long. If we're in each other's dreams, we can be together forever."
~Calvin and Hobbes
"...And then there's love. I want you to love to the tips of your fingers, and when you find that love, wherever you find it, whoever you choose, don't run away from it. But you don't have to chase after it either. You just be patient, and it'll come to you, I promis. You don't be afraid, and remember, to love is to live."
~Jen, "Dawson's Creek"
"If someone doesn't believe in me, I can't believe in them."
~Andie, "Pretty In Pink"
"Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop."
~Anon.
"Whoever shall not die for love is dead meat."
~JRM
"That thing, that moment, when you kiss someone and everything around becomes hazy and the only thing in focus is you and this person and you realize that that person is the only person that you're supposed to kiss for the rest of your life, and for one moment you get this amazing gift and you want to laugh and you want to cry because you feel so lucky that you found it and so scared that that it will go away all at the same time."
~Never Been Kissed