Take, take everything and leave me scrambling....
You know, when I left high school, I thought it was the greatest thing in the whole world. Freedom from parents, rules, teaschers.... and so on and so forth. But come to find out, my way of thinking was naieve to say the least. I remember when Steph came to school and she just seemed a lot happier than I am. Maybe I'm being dramatic, but I think it's safe to say that college has left me... unsatisfied to say the very least. I think that while I haven't been too thrilled in regards to College at all, I really started to be come unhappy about it this semester. Second semester is supposed to be better than the first... that's even what Steph said, and while she's not exactly Buddah (I say Buddah bc he has lotsa famous sayings...)or anything, but she is going throught the same hell as I am. Suffice to say, my own personal Buddah was incorrect in her assumptions...at least as far as I'm concerned. Blech. Is it really necessary to grow up??? Let me know if that question ever gets answered....
So yah, I definately dislike my little sister as of now. When Steph left for school I'll admit that I did get a lot more stuff because she was gone, but holy shit Kimmy's reaping the benefits of having us both gone... and it can't even be thrownback in my face that I got a lot when Steph left, because Kimmy was still there. It's not even WHAT she gets as much as it's how she acts about it. Her whole holier-than-thou kick is gettin a little old, and the fact that everytime I bring it up it makes my parents want to buy her more (to teach me a lesson? if so, bad way of teaching) sucks. I dunno, I guess I probably shouldnt have told my mum that I never get anything because that's obviously not true, but it sucks not being able to go and buy things on a whim or go places when I want because I don't have money. Like, I know Steph has to work for her money.... but I would if I could, and as much as everyone seems to think that it's a lie... it's not. Oh well. I'm done. Sod it all. You know if I lived in a lesser country I'd prolly be like as rich as royalty just because of what I have. Anyone want to move?
Welp, that's all. You all know how it goes.
To know me is to love me and you know you love me.
No shout outs... but this is for you, Z...
A subdued silence undisturbed by the sound of her breath.
So carefully, brush her hair back from her eyes
In steady sequence, one by one.
She slips away.
So close your eyes and sleep to dream.
I'm by your side.
No words to speak.
We'll set our course and make it through.
No matter how far I go my heart remains with you.
And I'm not sure what I'm looking for.
But it's clear to see the purpose of my exsistance Is laying here in front of me.
So close your eyes and sleep to dream.
I'm by your side.
No words to speak.
We'll set our course and make it through.
No matter how far I go
And if all else fails you can look up at the sky
Because it's the same one that shines above you and I.
And if all else fails you can close your eyes
And I'll be right beside you.
I'll be the one by your side.
So close your eyes and sleep to dream.
I'm by your side.
No words to speak.
We'll set our course and make it through.
No matter how far I go
No matter how much this hurts
I wanted you to know,
My heart remains with you.
--Matchbook Romance: If All Else Fails
So yah, I definately dislike my little sister as of now. When Steph left for school I'll admit that I did get a lot more stuff because she was gone, but holy shit Kimmy's reaping the benefits of having us both gone... and it can't even be thrownback in my face that I got a lot when Steph left, because Kimmy was still there. It's not even WHAT she gets as much as it's how she acts about it. Her whole holier-than-thou kick is gettin a little old, and the fact that everytime I bring it up it makes my parents want to buy her more (to teach me a lesson? if so, bad way of teaching) sucks. I dunno, I guess I probably shouldnt have told my mum that I never get anything because that's obviously not true, but it sucks not being able to go and buy things on a whim or go places when I want because I don't have money. Like, I know Steph has to work for her money.... but I would if I could, and as much as everyone seems to think that it's a lie... it's not. Oh well. I'm done. Sod it all. You know if I lived in a lesser country I'd prolly be like as rich as royalty just because of what I have. Anyone want to move?
Welp, that's all. You all know how it goes.
To know me is to love me and you know you love me.
No shout outs... but this is for you, Z...
A subdued silence undisturbed by the sound of her breath.
So carefully, brush her hair back from her eyes
In steady sequence, one by one.
She slips away.
So close your eyes and sleep to dream.
I'm by your side.
No words to speak.
We'll set our course and make it through.
No matter how far I go my heart remains with you.
And I'm not sure what I'm looking for.
But it's clear to see the purpose of my exsistance Is laying here in front of me.
So close your eyes and sleep to dream.
I'm by your side.
No words to speak.
We'll set our course and make it through.
No matter how far I go
And if all else fails you can look up at the sky
Because it's the same one that shines above you and I.
And if all else fails you can close your eyes
And I'll be right beside you.
I'll be the one by your side.
So close your eyes and sleep to dream.
I'm by your side.
No words to speak.
We'll set our course and make it through.
No matter how far I go
No matter how much this hurts
I wanted you to know,
My heart remains with you.
--Matchbook Romance: If All Else Fails