Are you kidding me???
So first Ima start off with the bullshit that's pissing me off rite now. Once the rant is over maybe I won't be so pissed, but I dunno yet. So here it goes. Mk, so Fri. nite Amanda and I went to go see The Incredibles (good moovie btw) and then we got Wendys, namely bc it was the only thing open at 12ish, and we just hung out. Mk, so the dilema was apparently Amanda had invited a whole slew of people and they all bailed or just never acknowledged the fact that she had invited them. The really shitty part was that Emily had made these plans with Amanda- like it was their idea- but she was one of the people who bailed. Had she had something really pressing or important to do it woulda been totally different, but no. Apparently she had told Lauren (I don't know her too well, but what I do know of her, she seems nice enough...) that she'd be her scapegoat, so to speak, incase this date thing Lauren went on didn't work out... or something-- I don't really know the specifics. I guess she wasn't aware of the fact that moovie nite was gonna be off campus *gasp* something away from HC *gasp* and she HAD to be on campus in case she was "called into action" so to speak. So yah, the big friend get together ending up being a total disaster to say the least. So Amanda and I were pissed off, but I guess Amanda patched things up a little bit bc Emily said she realized she spent more time with Andrew (more thoughts on HIM later)and so on and so forth and she was gonna work on it. So Amanda and I took it at face value but didnt think we could totally 100% rely on her again-- at least not yet. Mk, so I thought all was good...or getting better... but then she writes this shit-ass entry in her livejournal. I realize that's what LJs are for (as I'm doing the same thing rite now) but some of the things she said are SO far outta line it's not even funny. Like she made it seem as though Amanda and I were jealous (yah fucking rite is all I have to say ab that) of her "situation working out." I mean seriously-- why would we be jealous...oh yah bc our "situations didn't work out" (exact quote). What the fuck is that??? Then she went on to say that all I did on the weekends was get drunk at the frats. And she actually said this:
"I dunno if Sarah is still mad at me or not! Such is the way of things I guess. It doesn’t really matter anyway. I mean, what am I supposed to do, tell Andrew “Sorry, I can’t hang out with you anymore because my friends are jealous,” and then get trashed every weekend with a bunch of Phi Mu’s? Riiiiiight…yeah I’m thinking that’s not gonna happen."
WHAT THE FUCK??? I mean seriously, if you were in my place would you not be as pissed as I am. Yah that's what I thought. Rite now I think the only word I can think of to describe her is bitch, and that's SOO hard for me to say ab her, bc she's normally such a great person.
Okay...enough of that...now I'll get to happier things-- guess what? They don't include Emily.
So let's start from last weekend. Yah Halloween weekend. So it was a little disappointing that the only party going on was the FIJI pirate themed party bc frankly the FIJIs scare me. So I headed off to Lambda with Steph and Vivi and I FINALLY met her Lambda "big" so now I know he does indeed exist. been Haha. So onward and upward...yah I got a little-- ok a lot tipsy that nite between Screwdrivers and Mudslides, and I had a whole hell of a lot of fun. In fact, I even aquired the nickname "little Rice" haha...funny stuff. Anyrate, I left at aboot 2 ish because I had a presentation to do on Sat and didn't want to be hungover. When I got back to the room, I talked to Will and he randomly asked me to go over to his room and watch a moovie. So I went- for obvious reasons- and it was kinda uneventful bc we were both fer real tired, but fun nonetheless. Now here's where I got confused. He told me there was enough room on his futon to lay down next to him (I was sitting at the end and he was laying down with his legs on me). I am SO dumb. I shoulda said yes...I woulda said yes, but I was wearing a damn skirt. In hindsight all I see is that I'm a freakin moron. Maybe someday he'll invite me again, and I would definatley jump on any opportunity....But he coulda just asked me because he was still kinda buzzing (although he did say while he was creating his Earth Work thing he saw leaves and thought of me...)and I'm prolly just reading way too much into it. If anyone has any advice, I'm more than open to take it into consideration. There are lotsa guys here and I STILL haven't been able to hook up or even kiss ANYONE. Sheesh. Anyrate, Sat. sucked bc Beta scares me... and that was pretty much all that happened that weekend.
Last weekend was also kinda uneventful. Fri I just chilled with Amanda- as was previously mentioned- and that was a hellah lota fun. She took me on a date. Haha. Uhm... Sat was also kinda boring...Steph had a choir concert...totally S and C...but my rents came down so it was kinda fun. That nite, Steph got a "little tipsy" bc her 21st B-day was Sun, so it was understandable. I ended up crashing with Amanda and it was pretty fun, I spose. Hmmm...welp that's it for now as I'm v. tired of typing.
*Shout outs*
Amanda: I *heart* you...even though I'm not ure REAL friend. Also, know that I'm always gonna be here for ya-- as long as u take pictures baby bird. Haha.
Steph: Woop woop for u being 21. Glad you had a nice, but sick b-day. Also...I'm v. happy you FINALLY did laundry. Tee hee. Also, I am to mature... so neh!
Molly: How do you always manage to get yourself into these situations? I'll always be here as your advice.
To everyone else, you know where u stand...if you love me, much love back to u...if not- fuck ya.
To know me is to love me, and you know you love me.
***QUOTES***
Here I am, where I’ve been
I’ve walked a hundred miles in tobacco skin,
And my clothes are worn & gritty.
And I know ugliness,
Now show me something pretty.
I was a dumb punk kid with nothing to lose
And too much weight for walking shoes.
I could have died from being boring.
As for loneliness,
She greets me every morning.
At the most I’m a glare,
I’m the hopeless son who’s hardly there.
I’m the open sign that’s always busted.
I’m the friend you need, but can’t be trusted.
Here I am, where I’ve been
I’ve walked a hundred miles in tobacco skin,
And my clothes are worn & gritty.
And I know ugliness,
Now show me something pretty.
At the most I’m a glare,
I’m the hopeless son who’s hardly there.
I’m the open sign that’s always busted.
I’m the friend you need, but can’t be trusted.
~"Something Pretty" Patrick Park
I know enough now
To judge you somehow
A first impression that always leaves me 2nd guessing
I’m not the kind of guy
Screw hello, you had me at goodbye
So you think you had the right to tell me what to do
I didn’t see you crying after you said we were thru
I don’t wanna go
But after all it’s what she said
Why do you keep playing these games with my head?
Turn around, walk away
Make is easier
No one's forcing you to stay
Make it easier
You stole my past
I want it back
Don’t let the door hit your ass
I hope he makes you cry
Screw hello, you had me at goodbye
~"Goodbye" Wakefield
"Ted, my friend, I am nothing without you and all our excellent adventures"
~Bill, "Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure"
"And see, no longer blinded by our eyes."
~Rupert Brooke
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you
And I collide
~Howie Day
"I dunno if Sarah is still mad at me or not! Such is the way of things I guess. It doesn’t really matter anyway. I mean, what am I supposed to do, tell Andrew “Sorry, I can’t hang out with you anymore because my friends are jealous,” and then get trashed every weekend with a bunch of Phi Mu’s? Riiiiiight…yeah I’m thinking that’s not gonna happen."
WHAT THE FUCK??? I mean seriously, if you were in my place would you not be as pissed as I am. Yah that's what I thought. Rite now I think the only word I can think of to describe her is bitch, and that's SOO hard for me to say ab her, bc she's normally such a great person.
Okay...enough of that...now I'll get to happier things-- guess what? They don't include Emily.
So let's start from last weekend. Yah Halloween weekend. So it was a little disappointing that the only party going on was the FIJI pirate themed party bc frankly the FIJIs scare me. So I headed off to Lambda with Steph and Vivi and I FINALLY met her Lambda "big" so now I know he does indeed exist. been Haha. So onward and upward...yah I got a little-- ok a lot tipsy that nite between Screwdrivers and Mudslides, and I had a whole hell of a lot of fun. In fact, I even aquired the nickname "little Rice" haha...funny stuff. Anyrate, I left at aboot 2 ish because I had a presentation to do on Sat and didn't want to be hungover. When I got back to the room, I talked to Will and he randomly asked me to go over to his room and watch a moovie. So I went- for obvious reasons- and it was kinda uneventful bc we were both fer real tired, but fun nonetheless. Now here's where I got confused. He told me there was enough room on his futon to lay down next to him (I was sitting at the end and he was laying down with his legs on me). I am SO dumb. I shoulda said yes...I woulda said yes, but I was wearing a damn skirt. In hindsight all I see is that I'm a freakin moron. Maybe someday he'll invite me again, and I would definatley jump on any opportunity....But he coulda just asked me because he was still kinda buzzing (although he did say while he was creating his Earth Work thing he saw leaves and thought of me...)and I'm prolly just reading way too much into it. If anyone has any advice, I'm more than open to take it into consideration. There are lotsa guys here and I STILL haven't been able to hook up or even kiss ANYONE. Sheesh. Anyrate, Sat. sucked bc Beta scares me... and that was pretty much all that happened that weekend.
Last weekend was also kinda uneventful. Fri I just chilled with Amanda- as was previously mentioned- and that was a hellah lota fun. She took me on a date. Haha. Uhm... Sat was also kinda boring...Steph had a choir concert...totally S and C...but my rents came down so it was kinda fun. That nite, Steph got a "little tipsy" bc her 21st B-day was Sun, so it was understandable. I ended up crashing with Amanda and it was pretty fun, I spose. Hmmm...welp that's it for now as I'm v. tired of typing.
*Shout outs*
Amanda: I *heart* you...even though I'm not ure REAL friend. Also, know that I'm always gonna be here for ya-- as long as u take pictures baby bird. Haha.
Steph: Woop woop for u being 21. Glad you had a nice, but sick b-day. Also...I'm v. happy you FINALLY did laundry. Tee hee. Also, I am to mature... so neh!
Molly: How do you always manage to get yourself into these situations? I'll always be here as your advice.
To everyone else, you know where u stand...if you love me, much love back to u...if not- fuck ya.
To know me is to love me, and you know you love me.
***QUOTES***
Here I am, where I’ve been
I’ve walked a hundred miles in tobacco skin,
And my clothes are worn & gritty.
And I know ugliness,
Now show me something pretty.
I was a dumb punk kid with nothing to lose
And too much weight for walking shoes.
I could have died from being boring.
As for loneliness,
She greets me every morning.
At the most I’m a glare,
I’m the hopeless son who’s hardly there.
I’m the open sign that’s always busted.
I’m the friend you need, but can’t be trusted.
Here I am, where I’ve been
I’ve walked a hundred miles in tobacco skin,
And my clothes are worn & gritty.
And I know ugliness,
Now show me something pretty.
At the most I’m a glare,
I’m the hopeless son who’s hardly there.
I’m the open sign that’s always busted.
I’m the friend you need, but can’t be trusted.
~"Something Pretty" Patrick Park
I know enough now
To judge you somehow
A first impression that always leaves me 2nd guessing
I’m not the kind of guy
Screw hello, you had me at goodbye
So you think you had the right to tell me what to do
I didn’t see you crying after you said we were thru
I don’t wanna go
But after all it’s what she said
Why do you keep playing these games with my head?
Turn around, walk away
Make is easier
No one's forcing you to stay
Make it easier
You stole my past
I want it back
Don’t let the door hit your ass
I hope he makes you cry
Screw hello, you had me at goodbye
~"Goodbye" Wakefield
"Ted, my friend, I am nothing without you and all our excellent adventures"
~Bill, "Bill and Ted's Excellent Adventure"
"And see, no longer blinded by our eyes."
~Rupert Brooke
Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find you
And I collide
~Howie Day