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Re: You must get betterricepaperJuly 16 2007, 16:02:30 UTC
as far as the getting-better goes, i'm trying! :)
however, i am quite sure that i am destined for lesser things than saving the future of all humanity. :) please do not tease me. :) the "great things" idea brings up a good point, though. i have always wanted to be useful and do Big Good Things. my plans for my future included a practice of medicine that would be revolutionary in its own way, with a focus on the symbiosis of modern and natural/ancient medicine, self-empowered health, the spiritual and emotional aspects of illness, the necessity of a doctor's love for and closeness to those who are ill, and providing care for the poor, especially for women and children. i've always felt that this would be the very best use of any abilities that i may have, and the most satisfying. the hardest part of my growing more and more ill has been to think that perhaps my health is such that this may not happen; my leave of absence ends in january, for example, and if nothing else can be arranged, i do not think i will be well enough by then to finish the last couple years of school and get through residency. but then i realized that my plans, however "good" they are, are not the ones that matter, and becoming too attached to them for my own sake is selfish. it has been important for me to remember that i will do what i am meant to do, perhaps not in the way that i had planned, and that there are many ways to be of service. the world is bettered through small deeds as well as through great! i like to think of st. therese of lisieux, whose "little way" to heaven and sainthood consisted of "the doing of the least actions for love." so i am comforted now by the thought that if i am meant to do great things, i can do them for Good, and if i am meant to do small things, i can also do them for Good. :)
however, i am quite sure that i am destined for lesser things than saving the future of all humanity. :) please do not tease me. :) the "great things" idea brings up a good point, though. i have always wanted to be useful and do Big Good Things. my plans for my future included a practice of medicine that would be revolutionary in its own way, with a focus on the symbiosis of modern and natural/ancient medicine, self-empowered health, the spiritual and emotional aspects of illness, the necessity of a doctor's love for and closeness to those who are ill, and providing care for the poor, especially for women and children. i've always felt that this would be the very best use of any abilities that i may have, and the most satisfying. the hardest part of my growing more and more ill has been to think that perhaps my health is such that this may not happen; my leave of absence ends in january, for example, and if nothing else can be arranged, i do not think i will be well enough by then to finish the last couple years of school and get through residency. but then i realized that my plans, however "good" they are, are not the ones that matter, and becoming too attached to them for my own sake is selfish. it has been important for me to remember that i will do what i am meant to do, perhaps not in the way that i had planned, and that there are many ways to be of service. the world is bettered through small deeds as well as through great! i like to think of st. therese of lisieux, whose "little way" to heaven and sainthood consisted of "the doing of the least actions for love." so i am comforted now by the thought that if i am meant to do great things, i can do them for Good, and if i am meant to do small things, i can also do them for Good. :)
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