i just need someone to hold onto me while i fall apart
i woke up this morning with a migraine.
now you may be wondering, "oh, what's the big deal?" but truthfully, this is the third one this month. i've already gone to the doctor to get it all checked out and the diagnosis was just a mild case of migraines accompanied by aura warning signs.
now auras look like this this or this. it kinda hurts when i look at it to be honest.
although they're just mild (since they can be treated with tylenol), my doctor is making sure there really aren't any abnormalities in my head like aneurysms or tumors, so please don't be scared by reading this. i just really want you guys to know. i'll admit i'm a bit worried though, but i'll finally know what's what and have a "piece of mind" as my doctor said. so i'll be going in for an MRI this Saturday.
other than that i guess i'm also asking for help. i've been feeling stressed with a lot of things. a just a little before i really just wanted to cut myself off from people again. i stopped myself though, but i'm still stressed with relationships and school. all of which is probably added to the increased frequency of these migraines.
i'm doing my best to keep calm. breathing in and out. i know everyone has their own things right now and it's selfish of me to ask, but if i ever do see you guys please, lol i don't even know. i'd like to ask for more hugs, more laughs, and more get-togethers but with this busy schedule and clinicals coming up, i have no idea anymore.
my mom said i couldn't skip out on school with my migraines anymore and i'm kind of afraid at what more pushing will do to my head. there was this time during finals or midterms week where i was studying and ended up getting two migraines one after another.
i don't know what i'm asking for. i feel very weak right now emotionally and mentally and i feel i needed to vent this out coherently in writing than going on and on about it on the phone with just one person.
you're all very important to me. i miss you all. let's play rockband 2 soon, okay?
now after reading all this, i want to delete it. i sound like someone's saying /cry moar lol
now you may be wondering, "oh, what's the big deal?" but truthfully, this is the third one this month. i've already gone to the doctor to get it all checked out and the diagnosis was just a mild case of migraines accompanied by aura warning signs.
now auras look like this this or this. it kinda hurts when i look at it to be honest.
although they're just mild (since they can be treated with tylenol), my doctor is making sure there really aren't any abnormalities in my head like aneurysms or tumors, so please don't be scared by reading this. i just really want you guys to know. i'll admit i'm a bit worried though, but i'll finally know what's what and have a "piece of mind" as my doctor said. so i'll be going in for an MRI this Saturday.
other than that i guess i'm also asking for help. i've been feeling stressed with a lot of things. a just a little before i really just wanted to cut myself off from people again. i stopped myself though, but i'm still stressed with relationships and school. all of which is probably added to the increased frequency of these migraines.
i'm doing my best to keep calm. breathing in and out. i know everyone has their own things right now and it's selfish of me to ask, but if i ever do see you guys please, lol i don't even know. i'd like to ask for more hugs, more laughs, and more get-togethers but with this busy schedule and clinicals coming up, i have no idea anymore.
my mom said i couldn't skip out on school with my migraines anymore and i'm kind of afraid at what more pushing will do to my head. there was this time during finals or midterms week where i was studying and ended up getting two migraines one after another.
i don't know what i'm asking for. i feel very weak right now emotionally and mentally and i feel i needed to vent this out coherently in writing than going on and on about it on the phone with just one person.
you're all very important to me. i miss you all. let's play rockband 2 soon, okay?
now after reading all this, i want to delete it. i sound like someone's saying /cry moar lol