NYC round 3: Atlas café, 'snice, Dosa man, coffee, bagels and Lula's Sweet Apothecary.

[rice_dream_girl]

I'm back home in the UK now. Although in fact, I keep referring to Braddock as "home" too, so that's kind of confusing. Either way, I had a mini break in NYC from Monday until my flight from JFK on Wednesday, which began with a sleepless night spent on a Chinatown bus from Pittsburgh. It was totally worth it, though, because I managed to cram in

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[mobculture]

Okay, no, it's not nothing but it's less noticeable than, say, the 2stone I've put on in 3 years. I put it only slowly, but it means I'm finding it dreadfully hard to lose too. It doesn't matter what I eat, or don't eat, or how much I exercise, or don't, nothing seems to work very well. I'd like to be under 10st by Xmas but I have my doubts.

It's a medical thing. I'm not actually that unfit - I always surprise myself when I start exercising again, although if I gave up smoking again I'd be a thousand times better, but anyway - it's because I may or may not have lupus &/or fibromyalgia (or at least SOMEthing like that) which means that almost every part of my body hurts nigh-on constantly & stressing it in any way makes it worse. Plus, it's raining & cold & that doesn't help either. Nothing has been diagnosed by the doctor's, mostly because they never listen to me & I'm too scared to go, but I know something is wrong with my body & I don't need a doctor to tell me that. I need to do low impact things but I can't really swim because my hair will get fucked. I like riding my bike but even that isn't great, although I could do more I admit, & even walking hurts. :/

Yeah, I know. You can eat shit just eat less of it or exercise more (but see above) but I have absolutely no will power. I just go through phases where all I want to eat is CRAP. Haha. Oh well I guess I just need to get over it & accept myself but it's just hard when I hate almost everything about me (hooray for pity parties). Actually veggie versions of meat are amazing - I had the most massive amount of veggie fajitas the other week & felt like I was going to pop afterwards, but the next day I did not look like a bloated whale. It was amazing!

Please do!

[rice_dream_girl]

Oh god, I didn't realise it might be something like that (I have to admit I only know what Lupus is because of House MD)! That doesn't sound like any fun at all :( Perhaps if you did go to the doctors they could properly diagnose it and try to make it better for you? And with the swimming thing, you could get yourself a glamorous swimming cap? :P Sorry, poor joke... Ahem!

[mobculture]

Ha, well, I get a bit edgy everytime I see icons or T-shirts related to House that say "It's not lupus!" because you know, maybe it isn't, but there's something wrong at least. I have been to the doctor, they did blood tests when my hands stopped working back in May (never knew the results) & I went to a neurologist at Charing Cross hospital in July & was told I'd need more tests because it's complicated but I've heard nothing. At all. When I was referred to a neurologist at West Middlesex she asked me about my medical history & whether there were any other problems I was worried about & I told her a few things but she just fobbed them off, she wasn't listening to me. Looking back on it I was describing my fibromyalgia &/or Lupus symptoms & I'm going to be so pissed off if it turns out to be one of those & could have been diagnosed months ago but because the doctors wouldn't listen to me it took much longer than it had to.

Yeah, I could get a swimming cap but my fringe is going to suffer either way - I'll either have to leave it out or push it under somehow & it's going to get all fucked up haha.