my eyes are open..i can see now
I have a feeling that this year is going to be my year. Its been almost 22 years but its finally gonna be my year lol. For a very long time my life has been on pause. The whole world is moving so quickly and im just standing still. Not knowing where to go and if I were to scream noone would hear me. Trapped in a life that wasnt my own. Ive been so scared that when i blink i'll be 40 and have nothing to show for myself. But i refuse to be that person that watches her life pass her by and wonder "What if.." No..thats not me. All i want out of life is to succeed. To look back , smile and say "I did it" Me..I dont want to be that woman who accomplishes nothing and only relys on a man to support her. No..thats not me. Ive learned you cant set your goals on relying on other people. The truth is people will disappoint you and the only person that can help you move forward in life is yourself. This year is going be about me and my future. No one telling me what they want me to do or how i should do it. Im tired of people who seem to never have time to even acknowledge Im living in this world tell me to move somewhere or "when are you coming to visit me?" Seriously??? If you cant make a 2 minute call or text or even return any of my calls then dont bother me with that shit. The only people i care enough to make tha sacrifices for are the people whose done it for me in return. Dont bug me to visit you when you have never come to see me. Only 2 friends have ever came to see me in the almost 2 years ive lived here and they know who they are so if that aint you then fuck off! ...pheww that felt good. lol