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i just love honesty. even when honesty hurts it is great. if there was one attribute that someone should have it is honesty. i am perfectly happy with where i am at in life right now. yeah sure i wouldn't mind having a boyfriend who i could make out with all the time but, life is really good. if i were to reflect back to when i was 16 sitting in corri's bedroom talking about our future husbands and life, my life would be different. corri was going to go to beauty school and i was going to go into sales. we were going to move to newport beach california where we would open a beach wear store/salon. we would live upstairs so, we could just walk to work and make lunch whever we wanted. we would spend our breaks meeting beach hotties and watching surfers. we would have eventually made dinner for our beach hotties and got them to propose to us on the beach, well that beach was corri's thing. i have always wanted to be proposed to at a baseball feild on the big screen. i bet that will never happen but, that was my dream. we would get married and buy expensive houses in balboa and have beautiful flower baskets hanging from our porches. the cute kids would follow and we would play all day at the beach. we had our lives planned out, ha. look at us now! we are sooo different. i am just thankful to be alive, happy, healthy, and have people love me. yeah my family and friends may drive me nuts sometimes but, i am way to serious about stuff. i want to chill out and be fun again. for a little while here and there i lost my youthfulness. i am young and focused but, i want to have fun all the time like a used to. i miss me but, i think that me has been showing up a lot lately since, i have had a lot of changes go on in my life namely work environment.