just when i'm ready to lose all faith...
"Love, hope, fear, faith--these make humanity; These are its sign and note and character."--ROBERT BROWNING, Paracelsus
it should come as no surprise that lately i've had a bit of a deficit regarding my faith in humanity. it seems like i have been surrounded by failure, both of other people's making and more importantly my own.
i'm not always a good friend, not always a good relative, not always a good employee or even a good person...but i try. even more in recent history, i seem to continually find myself in situations where other people disappoint me too. then suddenly, i realized this morning that the disappointment ought to be with myself. i mean, i have so much going for me, so many great people around me, so many wonderful things happening in my life, yet i (the eternal pessimist) only tend to focus on the bad things.
let's talk about what i have to be thankful for:
-i have great friends. ok, so a few years ago i would have listed my casual acquaintances and regular party attenders as friends, and thus had many more names in my frequent callers group. so there's only a few people in my life right now that i know i can depend on for anything, but you know what? i'm so grateful for them...more grateful than i ever was when i was the bell of the ball. i guess maybe that's a part of growing older? finding out who your real friends are and clinging to them for dear life to help you get through the worst of times, and to share with you the best of times.
-i stumbled upon the most awesome set-up to live in. seriously, without any warning, i was homeless. then without any warning, i found this awesome place, with awesome people, awesome rent, awesome perks and basically the most awesome setting for me EVER. i mean, honestly? how do you complain about $425 ALL BILLS PAID, where randomly horses show up in your backyard to eat your bushes and scare your pussy of a great dane?
this morning i ran out to my new place to take care of my dogs and talk to my landlord. seriously, he and his wife are exactly the kind of people i needed to have enter my life to begin to slowly restore my faith. so i come out of the backyard and walk up to the porch. there's my landlords, sitting at the table with three plates and glasses. his wife goes, "I made breakfast honey, since I knew you were coming." ok, i don't know these people from eve...they don't know me...but they are just honestly the type of people who hear someone is stopping by and make a girl breakfast.
i seriously can't wait to get moved in, can't wait to be done with it and settled into "home". now if only i could get someone with a truck...grrr...
it should come as no surprise that lately i've had a bit of a deficit regarding my faith in humanity. it seems like i have been surrounded by failure, both of other people's making and more importantly my own.
i'm not always a good friend, not always a good relative, not always a good employee or even a good person...but i try. even more in recent history, i seem to continually find myself in situations where other people disappoint me too. then suddenly, i realized this morning that the disappointment ought to be with myself. i mean, i have so much going for me, so many great people around me, so many wonderful things happening in my life, yet i (the eternal pessimist) only tend to focus on the bad things.
let's talk about what i have to be thankful for:
-i have great friends. ok, so a few years ago i would have listed my casual acquaintances and regular party attenders as friends, and thus had many more names in my frequent callers group. so there's only a few people in my life right now that i know i can depend on for anything, but you know what? i'm so grateful for them...more grateful than i ever was when i was the bell of the ball. i guess maybe that's a part of growing older? finding out who your real friends are and clinging to them for dear life to help you get through the worst of times, and to share with you the best of times.
-i stumbled upon the most awesome set-up to live in. seriously, without any warning, i was homeless. then without any warning, i found this awesome place, with awesome people, awesome rent, awesome perks and basically the most awesome setting for me EVER. i mean, honestly? how do you complain about $425 ALL BILLS PAID, where randomly horses show up in your backyard to eat your bushes and scare your pussy of a great dane?
this morning i ran out to my new place to take care of my dogs and talk to my landlord. seriously, he and his wife are exactly the kind of people i needed to have enter my life to begin to slowly restore my faith. so i come out of the backyard and walk up to the porch. there's my landlords, sitting at the table with three plates and glasses. his wife goes, "I made breakfast honey, since I knew you were coming." ok, i don't know these people from eve...they don't know me...but they are just honestly the type of people who hear someone is stopping by and make a girl breakfast.
i seriously can't wait to get moved in, can't wait to be done with it and settled into "home". now if only i could get someone with a truck...grrr...