So so so so so sorryyyyyyyyy!
Haven't posted in forever and I'm so sorry about that. But I have my reasons! (Like I always do. /sob)
Okay, well, for starters - university got to me. I became busy, busy, busy with trying to balance studies with my social life with my new (anime) club life with my new sense of homesickness, and all that got to me.
Heck, I haven't watched a single anime episode from the last time I posted till now, so let me just tell you now - I was busy. Busy, busy, busy.
And when my final exams were over and I finally had the chance to get back to my fun life (LJ, anime, kpop), life struck again and my stupid disease came back and wreaked havoc on me. It got so bad that in the middle of the night, I ended up heading to the emergency department because I couldn't breathe. Turns out, my condition elevates my blood pressure, so if I get anxious about ANYTHING, I end up having difficulty breathing.
And, er, on top of that, the surgery can only be "cured" by surgery. Mind you, it's a relatively quick and "small" surgery, but there's still a 5% chance of damaging my parathyroid and/or vocal cords, causing me to either have to take calcium supplements for the rest of my life and/or have a hoarse voice for the rest of my life. To top all that off, the quotation marks were added because THERE IS NO CURE FOR THIS.
After the surgery, I'll have another disease for the rest of my life. Which means blood tests quarterly to yearly for the rest of my life, meds every day for the rest of my life - yeah. Sure, I can choose to not do the surgery - but the meds I'm taking every day has a 1 in 1000 chance of lowering my blood cell count, causing problems with blood clotting and all that. So... yeah, eff it.
On top of all this crap, one of my brothers is undergoing intensive surgery next month, and there's a chance that he may never walk again, and - look, I'm sorry, but it's just hell here, which is why I've been gone for so long. Financial situation sucks, family situation sucks, health-wise it sucks, I've been diagnosed with both social anxiety and depression, and life is just going to hell.
So I'm sorry for not updating for so long.
But I do have my reasons.
Okay, well, for starters - university got to me. I became busy, busy, busy with trying to balance studies with my social life with my new (anime) club life with my new sense of homesickness, and all that got to me.
Heck, I haven't watched a single anime episode from the last time I posted till now, so let me just tell you now - I was busy. Busy, busy, busy.
And when my final exams were over and I finally had the chance to get back to my fun life (LJ, anime, kpop), life struck again and my stupid disease came back and wreaked havoc on me. It got so bad that in the middle of the night, I ended up heading to the emergency department because I couldn't breathe. Turns out, my condition elevates my blood pressure, so if I get anxious about ANYTHING, I end up having difficulty breathing.
And, er, on top of that, the surgery can only be "cured" by surgery. Mind you, it's a relatively quick and "small" surgery, but there's still a 5% chance of damaging my parathyroid and/or vocal cords, causing me to either have to take calcium supplements for the rest of my life and/or have a hoarse voice for the rest of my life. To top all that off, the quotation marks were added because THERE IS NO CURE FOR THIS.
After the surgery, I'll have another disease for the rest of my life. Which means blood tests quarterly to yearly for the rest of my life, meds every day for the rest of my life - yeah. Sure, I can choose to not do the surgery - but the meds I'm taking every day has a 1 in 1000 chance of lowering my blood cell count, causing problems with blood clotting and all that. So... yeah, eff it.
On top of all this crap, one of my brothers is undergoing intensive surgery next month, and there's a chance that he may never walk again, and - look, I'm sorry, but it's just hell here, which is why I've been gone for so long. Financial situation sucks, family situation sucks, health-wise it sucks, I've been diagnosed with both social anxiety and depression, and life is just going to hell.
So I'm sorry for not updating for so long.
But I do have my reasons.