Jul 04, 2011 01:49
who the fuck am i again,
☆nina,
look at your life look at your choices,
how did this post get so long,
☆connla,
☆rin,
fuck everything,
e rank luck wins every time,
this deer is teal in color,
shiiiiiiit,
not-so-easy amnesia,
adamantium woobie,
what is even going on,
shit is gonna get real
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'The hell'd she just call me? Don't tell me she's getting it too--'
'...huh, I think I've seen her somewhere before. Can't remember her name, though.'
...I don't actually...know. I can't read whatever's written in them.
[Why did he distinctly feel like that was fundamentally wrong? It was some foreign language he didn't understand, and yet it was as if he'd been looking at something he'd forgotten a long time ago.]
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['I will accept your oath under the name of Lancer'--it was a thought that came out of nowhere, with no context behind it save for the faint yet persistent sense of some kind of attachment.]
Does anything...feel a little off to you today?
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[...wait, what? That wasn't...that wasn't right, was it? Why, how could he vividly remember traveling to a foreign land and risking death just to be with the woman he'd loved? That couldn't have happened.]
[So how did he know that it had?]
...
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[what the hell was going on? Was he completely losing it?]
I'm...sorry, I should probably get going.
['...I have to figure out whether or not I've finally cracked. And why seeing her is just bothering me. I forgot something important, but what the hell was it?']
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Yeah, you too.
[All he managed to do was take two steps before he hesitated. This was wrong, this was so wrong and he didn't understand how it was wrong or what was even real anymore.]
Rin, just...take care of your brother, okay?
[But he knew saying that was important somehow.]
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['I shall accept you as my Master, Rin.']
[--and he hardly even knew her brother-]
['If I were among you to the end of five years, I should vanquish the men of the world before you on every side and you would hold kingship as far as Rome.']
[...why? Why was he remembering all of these insane, impossible things? Why did they seem just as real as the ground he was standing on?]
I'll...keep that in mind.
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[-or a guard dog, he thought suddenly, not quite sure why he'd chosen that particular phrasing. No, that...was what they called him. That was his name. Culann's Hound, defender of Ulster and Servant of Rin Tohsaka.]
[...but that couldn't be right. That wasn't her last name, and what the hell did he mean by 'Servant'?]
['This place brings you misery, doesn't it? Why would you want to remember it?']
[He had known the answer the moment she had asked that question--because there were things worth remembering. Had any of that day even really happened? Was it some delusion of his possibly slipping sanity?]
[What was he supposed to remember now?]
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