i finished my journal today. well, actually i decided i was finished, but it's because i didn't have enough space to write what i wanted
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i was so embarrassed that i liked you so much and so hurt that you didn't feel as consumed as i did. and so confused that someone i had dreamed up could actually embody my expectations. at that point I had already loved you since 9th grade (and for years afterwards).
anyway, adrienne was a quack. i think she was jealous that knowing you made me so happy even when it was so confusing. and i think she was, had been and probably still is very hurt that she made the wrong choice. she's whole heartedly in love with someone who won't ever reciprocate. i haven't talked with her in 6 years, so i don't know for sure.
no being able to be friends with you after the end will always be a big regret for me.
i have infinite tenderness for you.
i think it's funny how, even after all these years of disconnect, I can still think of things I'd like to tell you or things I'd like to sort out with you.
I came on here to delete this account and then started reading my old posts and I kinda missed you.
I know you won't read this, but at least I have said it.
it was always you.
i was so embarrassed that i liked you so much and so hurt that you didn't feel as consumed as i did. and so confused that someone i had dreamed up could actually embody my expectations. at that point I had already loved you since 9th grade (and for years afterwards).
anyway, adrienne was a quack. i think she was jealous that knowing you made me so happy even when it was so confusing. and i think she was, had been and probably still is very hurt that she made the wrong choice. she's whole heartedly in love with someone who won't ever reciprocate. i haven't talked with her in 6 years, so i don't know for sure.
no being able to be friends with you after the end will always be a big regret for me.
i have infinite tenderness for you.
i think it's funny how, even after all these years of disconnect, I can still think of things I'd like to tell you or things I'd like to sort out with you.
I came on here to delete this account and then started reading my old posts and I kinda missed you.
I know you won't read this, but at least I have said it.
-r
PS: I'd love to hunt zombies with you some time.
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