update.......
well here goes nothing. i have been sick all day and its driving me nuts. yesterday leah and i went chico and got our dog. she is a malamute chow cross. her name is spice and she is 2 years old. we also picked up Mike and Katie so they are up here for the weekend. we take them home tomarrow after we try out the church we found up here. i like it up here but it is werid not being around everyone all the time. I am glad i am not in paradise anymore though. the next move will be out of cali. i am soo mad a myself for ever coming back i got out once and now i am back in this hell hole. in all truth the reason i am so mad at myself is because i am madly in love with one man and one man only and he is in minnesota. that is a whole nother story though. i will get into that later. so basically Quincy is a good thing but it will be even better once Leah and i meet some people and get out of this motel and into our house.
Now as for the love life. if you didnt all know i am dating this guy named mike. he is a good guy and deserves the best in his life i am just not that someone. i love him dearly as my friend but i am not in love with him. he just isnt for me. when i am with him i feel like i cant be me. gut instict says i need out so tomarrow i am talking to him when we take him home. on top of that it is not fair to lead him on. i am not in love with him i am in love with tim. he stole my heart when he came out here the first time and he still has it. as far as i am concerned he always will. my heart, body and soul belong to him. hopefully him and i will figure out a way to make it work. there is still the distance thing but i really truely believe we can do it. so that is the just of what is going on there.
on and i have to ware a dress. my friend Julie is getting married July 8th and i am in the wedding. so is leah. we got fitted yesterday. scarey huh!! i havent been in a dress sense jr prom and before that i dont remember when. i dont even think i know how to act in one. oh and i have to ware heels. black strappy ones!! i am running away. somebody help me.
Now as for the love life. if you didnt all know i am dating this guy named mike. he is a good guy and deserves the best in his life i am just not that someone. i love him dearly as my friend but i am not in love with him. he just isnt for me. when i am with him i feel like i cant be me. gut instict says i need out so tomarrow i am talking to him when we take him home. on top of that it is not fair to lead him on. i am not in love with him i am in love with tim. he stole my heart when he came out here the first time and he still has it. as far as i am concerned he always will. my heart, body and soul belong to him. hopefully him and i will figure out a way to make it work. there is still the distance thing but i really truely believe we can do it. so that is the just of what is going on there.
on and i have to ware a dress. my friend Julie is getting married July 8th and i am in the wedding. so is leah. we got fitted yesterday. scarey huh!! i havent been in a dress sense jr prom and before that i dont remember when. i dont even think i know how to act in one. oh and i have to ware heels. black strappy ones!! i am running away. somebody help me.