2 days no cigs...
OMG today at work sucked. I hyperventilated 3 times and was uncontrollably crying...shortness of breath, head rushes, it just planed sucked.... I still haven't had a cig and i am so proud of myself because i could have had one at work anytime but I didn't. Sunny and I are having a arguement atm, of course that didn't help tonight which that almost drove me to smoke...but i kept my cool and just left the area and went back to my area....
Kenny, her husband, actually asked her to ask me if I could fix thier pc...I was thinking in my mind, lemme see ok but when will i do it tomarrow...Then be4 I could answer(btw this is about only 2 seconds past by) She says "No forget it...your busy with your gf tomarrow, wouldn't want to interfere..." This is all i got to say as you can see why I am pissed in the first place. I was gonna help her till she said that then we argued over how since I started dating Ren I haven't called or helped or been a friend to her(Jealousy). I don't mean to do it, ignore her I mean, its just when she calls i am in a position to where me and Ren are either going somewhere or going away from Dixie highway(where my friend lives). So I kinda of clam up don't say anything when she asks a question...she takes that as a no then precedes to hang up.
Anyway just to let you all know i want to smoke really bad and I can just go buy a pack but guess what...I don't want to dissappoint Ren...This is gonna kill me not smoking....
Ria
Kenny, her husband, actually asked her to ask me if I could fix thier pc...I was thinking in my mind, lemme see ok but when will i do it tomarrow...Then be4 I could answer(btw this is about only 2 seconds past by) She says "No forget it...your busy with your gf tomarrow, wouldn't want to interfere..." This is all i got to say as you can see why I am pissed in the first place. I was gonna help her till she said that then we argued over how since I started dating Ren I haven't called or helped or been a friend to her(Jealousy). I don't mean to do it, ignore her I mean, its just when she calls i am in a position to where me and Ren are either going somewhere or going away from Dixie highway(where my friend lives). So I kinda of clam up don't say anything when she asks a question...she takes that as a no then precedes to hang up.
Anyway just to let you all know i want to smoke really bad and I can just go buy a pack but guess what...I don't want to dissappoint Ren...This is gonna kill me not smoking....
Ria