truth or consequence
Recently I've deleted *most* of the entries from all this past year and a little of December last year. I just didn't see the need to keep my past, the past I'm not very proud of at all. Besides, I know most of you go back and read my shit when you're bored, then eventually use it against me. Either way it's shitty.
I turn 17 on Monday, November 10th. It's pretty cool, I guess. Legally I could take my GED, but.. I don't know if that's gonna happen anytime soon! My mother and I have discussed getting a state issued ID for piercings, checks, basically anything. Speaking of piercings, I'm getting my nose pierced again, and maybe an eyebrow- but no tongue. I just.. don't want to risk anything or feel like everyone else.
I'd like to get a little alcohol to drink next weekend in celebration of turning 17. Besides Matt and Joey, does anyone else feel like gettin' a little drank on? ;)
It's weird. I don't think I could ever handle the taste of a cigarette again, but I see myself smoking still. I'd love to, but it just disgusts me now. That has to be a good thing.
Last night Joey and I watched Just Married and paid off the $18 fine at Blockbuster. Came back here, I baked a little sugar cookie (BLAH!), and eventually went to Chickfila to meet Matt and two other boys. It was so fucking cold. And wet. Watched a little bit of Wrong Turn, then fell asleep. Not a bad night.
Jane came over after we got back from Chick, and we talked for a minute or two. She mentioned how Robby "wishes me happy birthday." I do wish he could/would tell me himself. It would just mean that much more. Oh well. :/
SPEAKING OF LAST NIGHT- HAHA- why the fuck would you pay for a football ticket if everyone knew who was going to win/lose the game. Come on, you fools. Was it that hard to figure out? Midland High sucks and will always suck. Fucking funny. It disgusted me how MHS just kept talking all this cocky shit, and they're the ones who lost in the end. They put up signs saying "Lee's a whorehouse" blah blah- but I think if we all looked around, it'd be about equal. I don't think you should advertise that shit all over town just to look the more immature high school talking more shit. People wonder why I'm ashamed to attend school there. HM.
Laura's birthday is November 15, 16, or 17th. I forgot. haha. But I wanted to get her something because I saw so much shit I think she would like.. unfortunately, I don't think I would get a thank you and I simply don't want to waste my money when Amy's birthday is the 25th of November, Liz's the 14, and Joey's the 20th of next month. So so much to get done.
I've been coughing all damn day, not to mention I woke up at 8 this morning because my throat hurt so.damn.bad. I'll be happy if I have the flu, but not on my birthday. :( Any other day. PLEASE.
AND- starting December 3rd, I'm starting a program for my "anger" and "self confidence" and "responsibility." Obviously because, well, look at me. I'm a ball of fuckin mess. It's a 12 week program, two nights a week. Maybe then I'll help myself a little more and achieve a little more the "RIGHT" way.
My sister's in Dallas, she left this morning. I fully plan on wearing out her wardrobe. I have an interior design project due on Monday, and my mother and I have some bonding to do.
I love you, you know I do.
I turn 17 on Monday, November 10th. It's pretty cool, I guess. Legally I could take my GED, but.. I don't know if that's gonna happen anytime soon! My mother and I have discussed getting a state issued ID for piercings, checks, basically anything. Speaking of piercings, I'm getting my nose pierced again, and maybe an eyebrow- but no tongue. I just.. don't want to risk anything or feel like everyone else.
I'd like to get a little alcohol to drink next weekend in celebration of turning 17. Besides Matt and Joey, does anyone else feel like gettin' a little drank on? ;)
It's weird. I don't think I could ever handle the taste of a cigarette again, but I see myself smoking still. I'd love to, but it just disgusts me now. That has to be a good thing.
Last night Joey and I watched Just Married and paid off the $18 fine at Blockbuster. Came back here, I baked a little sugar cookie (BLAH!), and eventually went to Chickfila to meet Matt and two other boys. It was so fucking cold. And wet. Watched a little bit of Wrong Turn, then fell asleep. Not a bad night.
Jane came over after we got back from Chick, and we talked for a minute or two. She mentioned how Robby "wishes me happy birthday." I do wish he could/would tell me himself. It would just mean that much more. Oh well. :/
SPEAKING OF LAST NIGHT- HAHA- why the fuck would you pay for a football ticket if everyone knew who was going to win/lose the game. Come on, you fools. Was it that hard to figure out? Midland High sucks and will always suck. Fucking funny. It disgusted me how MHS just kept talking all this cocky shit, and they're the ones who lost in the end. They put up signs saying "Lee's a whorehouse" blah blah- but I think if we all looked around, it'd be about equal. I don't think you should advertise that shit all over town just to look the more immature high school talking more shit. People wonder why I'm ashamed to attend school there. HM.
Laura's birthday is November 15, 16, or 17th. I forgot. haha. But I wanted to get her something because I saw so much shit I think she would like.. unfortunately, I don't think I would get a thank you and I simply don't want to waste my money when Amy's birthday is the 25th of November, Liz's the 14, and Joey's the 20th of next month. So so much to get done.
I've been coughing all damn day, not to mention I woke up at 8 this morning because my throat hurt so.damn.bad. I'll be happy if I have the flu, but not on my birthday. :( Any other day. PLEASE.
AND- starting December 3rd, I'm starting a program for my "anger" and "self confidence" and "responsibility." Obviously because, well, look at me. I'm a ball of fuckin mess. It's a 12 week program, two nights a week. Maybe then I'll help myself a little more and achieve a little more the "RIGHT" way.
My sister's in Dallas, she left this morning. I fully plan on wearing out her wardrobe. I have an interior design project due on Monday, and my mother and I have some bonding to do.
I love you, you know I do.