Honesty. Sometimes it needs to be articulated, even if it's not to the right person.
If I were being honest, I'd say that I'm still incredibly angry & hurt.
If I were being honest, I'd say that I'm pissed off that everything is 'working out' for you.
If I were being honest, I'd say that I really DON'T want things to go back to how they were, because you don't have my trust, and you don't deserve my friendship.
If I were being honest, I'd be strong enough to cut all ties and walk away - which is, quite frankly, what I wish I could do.
If I were being honest, I'd tell you that the only reason I am even cordial to you right now is so that I don't have to live in a hostile home.
If I am being honest right now, which I most certainly am, you should know that nothing's going to be the same, and you're the ONLY person responsible for it.
If I were being honest, I'd say that I'm pissed off that everything is 'working out' for you.
If I were being honest, I'd say that I really DON'T want things to go back to how they were, because you don't have my trust, and you don't deserve my friendship.
If I were being honest, I'd be strong enough to cut all ties and walk away - which is, quite frankly, what I wish I could do.
If I were being honest, I'd tell you that the only reason I am even cordial to you right now is so that I don't have to live in a hostile home.
If I am being honest right now, which I most certainly am, you should know that nothing's going to be the same, and you're the ONLY person responsible for it.