Time for A Revival......
Yea, so I've been doing alot of thinking tonight,,,I need revival in my heart, body, mind, soul, life in general. i used to be so strong in my walk with God. Now I'm weak. Feeling sorry for the way I've acted when I knew the 'truth' yet followed so much deciet. It's time, time to return to God, Jesus, My savior. My friend. I think back about when I was with Shade Tree, the now defunct pop/rock christian band and how many lifes we were able to see changed....turned away from bad and onto good. i was much happier then. I've written so many 'christian based songs' and that is where I feel my talent is best used. i would also like to get involved once again with people who believe the same, I know that entails church and all but, I'm talking more personal friends and such not just people I see on Sundays or Wednesdays or whatever.....I also want to start going to 7:22 again. i really miss that....wow, this tuesday....it's on...if they're doing it and they should be. So, being that this is sunday morning...I should go to church ehhh?? I think I'll go suprose my friend Ronny by attending there. I really feel this calling all of the sudden, not sure why now. But, I won't question God. Only follow obediantly, if only i could always have that mindset!!!! I'm sleepy now, but, I won't let that deter me from following thru........
On to other less important things though very meaningful, I 'met' a wonderful girl. So i haven't really "talked" to her yet, but we've had some really good chats. I think that God has placed her in my life as inspiration. She prolly doesen't realize it but....yea. She is very inspiring. She makes me smile constantly, be in a happy mood, and not worry...about anything. It's strange but cool. The online/text msg thing may fade or maybe it will blossom into something much more. I don't know....but, i do know that I am leaving this in God's hands. What He brings together He controls, and with this i give it to Him. Of course right now, I'm hoping maybe it could turn into more :-)
I know this has been my most.....controversial....entry..But I no longer care how people may percive me or whatever. I'm doing what is right for me...and this is. I guess I prolly won't have too many negative comments anyway seeing that no one, has ever commented on my entries, though I only have 4 friends....but anyway. I'm rambling now. guess I should go....
Oh one more thing, yea..I read thru some of my journal entries, and I am dissapointed in many of them, I can't belive some of the things I've said...I don't really regret what I've said just the way I've said some of it.
One Love,
Brian
On to other less important things though very meaningful, I 'met' a wonderful girl. So i haven't really "talked" to her yet, but we've had some really good chats. I think that God has placed her in my life as inspiration. She prolly doesen't realize it but....yea. She is very inspiring. She makes me smile constantly, be in a happy mood, and not worry...about anything. It's strange but cool. The online/text msg thing may fade or maybe it will blossom into something much more. I don't know....but, i do know that I am leaving this in God's hands. What He brings together He controls, and with this i give it to Him. Of course right now, I'm hoping maybe it could turn into more :-)
I know this has been my most.....controversial....entry..But I no longer care how people may percive me or whatever. I'm doing what is right for me...and this is. I guess I prolly won't have too many negative comments anyway seeing that no one, has ever commented on my entries, though I only have 4 friends....but anyway. I'm rambling now. guess I should go....
Oh one more thing, yea..I read thru some of my journal entries, and I am dissapointed in many of them, I can't belive some of the things I've said...I don't really regret what I've said just the way I've said some of it.
One Love,
Brian