The candles are blown...
So today was my birthday.
Am fighting the urge to be terribly dissapointed.
Not that it was a bad day by any means... was far better than your average monday. But...
Lump some of birthday was two cards and a brownie from some of the cast of the show, a pair of umbrellas from my mom, and the 2nd season of the Dave Chapelle Show from John. Mom called and had lunch with me, Brent forgot but said Happy Birthday, and Brennan called to say Happy Birthday and that he has a new boyfriend.
And I feel guilty complaining. I mean, that's a hell of a lot more than some people get. It really is... and I know that. It's just that all day there has been this sort of "Oh... it's your birthday? That's nice... *turns away*" feeling. And I know show friends are show friends... but Ste'n is three days older than me... and they brought him a cake and chipped in for a present, etc... And I got (from Alan who's known me for a year and was reminded on thursday) "Oh... why didn't you tell anyone it was your birthday?"
Sigh. So I'm jealous, dissatisfied, and lonely. And I don't want to be... but I am.
Hopefully sleep will make everything shiny and new again.
Am fighting the urge to be terribly dissapointed.
Not that it was a bad day by any means... was far better than your average monday. But...
Lump some of birthday was two cards and a brownie from some of the cast of the show, a pair of umbrellas from my mom, and the 2nd season of the Dave Chapelle Show from John. Mom called and had lunch with me, Brent forgot but said Happy Birthday, and Brennan called to say Happy Birthday and that he has a new boyfriend.
And I feel guilty complaining. I mean, that's a hell of a lot more than some people get. It really is... and I know that. It's just that all day there has been this sort of "Oh... it's your birthday? That's nice... *turns away*" feeling. And I know show friends are show friends... but Ste'n is three days older than me... and they brought him a cake and chipped in for a present, etc... And I got (from Alan who's known me for a year and was reminded on thursday) "Oh... why didn't you tell anyone it was your birthday?"
Sigh. So I'm jealous, dissatisfied, and lonely. And I don't want to be... but I am.
Hopefully sleep will make everything shiny and new again.