Of Allergens and Angst
I feel like I have had the same cold/ throat thing for 3 weeks now. Do I go to a doctor? Of course not. But soon. Note to Chuck, doctors good, allergies bad, idiot.
Things that are good in my life:
-research (2 teams now). The Doctors Orbe-Astin should be intereting. Apparently I will be learning an advanced methodology called structural equation modeling which most Ph.d's dont learn until thier 3rd year. Kinda scary. But very interesting. As for Team Mattis, all seems well and inter-rater rater reliability is so close I can taste it. As is APA.
-Greece and Bremuda- After 2 years of basically going no where on vacation, I get two of the hottest spots around. Wedding in Greece- dunno what to expect of either my wedding date or of the wedding. Need to plan and book rooms on the islands and in athens before ya know june when the wedding is. And its may. And I'm so behind on that. Bremuda is just me and my cuz at his swank little place there where he works as a lawyer for a Bond Villian. Yep. Fun times.
-The new pad- so sweet. solid hood. Water front manhattan views. Biking across the brooklyn and williamsburg bridge. So much sweeter with the leather couch from jersey and a pillow-topped queen size bed that doesnt take up half the room. Oh and cable. But I'm on the fence about cable. Never thought I'd see the day when I'd be on the fence about tv. Who knew?
Things that are okay but stressful:
-Applying to PhD's
-Talking to prospective research mentors who are way smarter than I'll ever hope to be.
-Research, again.
-My new Macnulty-Bunk fluctuating lifestyle.
Things that suck:
-Taking the GRE again. Again. And having to take a course or find a tutor or whatever in order to score better on the math section. Fucking math. Bane of my existence.
-Being erased from people's lives. Its sorta like forget without the forgive.
-Erasing people from my life. But not at the same time. I'm a packrat. Its just not in my nature. Even when it can only possibly hurt me more. Its silly. One day I'll burn the letters, erase the emails, etc. Just not today, for whatever stupid reason.
-Moving on with life, yet not moving on with life.
-Stress, anxiety, self-doubt and such that results from all of the things which suck and the things that are stressful.
But note: I put the positives first and then worked down to the negatives. This must be a new chuck on the horizon.
Things that are good in my life:
-research (2 teams now). The Doctors Orbe-Astin should be intereting. Apparently I will be learning an advanced methodology called structural equation modeling which most Ph.d's dont learn until thier 3rd year. Kinda scary. But very interesting. As for Team Mattis, all seems well and inter-rater rater reliability is so close I can taste it. As is APA.
-Greece and Bremuda- After 2 years of basically going no where on vacation, I get two of the hottest spots around. Wedding in Greece- dunno what to expect of either my wedding date or of the wedding. Need to plan and book rooms on the islands and in athens before ya know june when the wedding is. And its may. And I'm so behind on that. Bremuda is just me and my cuz at his swank little place there where he works as a lawyer for a Bond Villian. Yep. Fun times.
-The new pad- so sweet. solid hood. Water front manhattan views. Biking across the brooklyn and williamsburg bridge. So much sweeter with the leather couch from jersey and a pillow-topped queen size bed that doesnt take up half the room. Oh and cable. But I'm on the fence about cable. Never thought I'd see the day when I'd be on the fence about tv. Who knew?
Things that are okay but stressful:
-Applying to PhD's
-Talking to prospective research mentors who are way smarter than I'll ever hope to be.
-Research, again.
-My new Macnulty-Bunk fluctuating lifestyle.
Things that suck:
-Taking the GRE again. Again. And having to take a course or find a tutor or whatever in order to score better on the math section. Fucking math. Bane of my existence.
-Being erased from people's lives. Its sorta like forget without the forgive.
-Erasing people from my life. But not at the same time. I'm a packrat. Its just not in my nature. Even when it can only possibly hurt me more. Its silly. One day I'll burn the letters, erase the emails, etc. Just not today, for whatever stupid reason.
-Moving on with life, yet not moving on with life.
-Stress, anxiety, self-doubt and such that results from all of the things which suck and the things that are stressful.
But note: I put the positives first and then worked down to the negatives. This must be a new chuck on the horizon.