Ramblings

[rhyannon]

I have been thinking a lot lately and I've tried to keep some of it out of my journal after all the drama resulted from talking about migraines all the time. I think there is a tendency in people to speak about what they know and to harp on the things they cannot change, however much they might want to. For me it was pain. I've been trying to

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[neenerface]

First let me address the migraines. The only way I can keep up to date on how you're doing with them is in here. The only way you can sometimes sort it out for yourself is in here. I had no idea there was drama. I'd like to personally send a big fuck you right in the ass to anyone who gave you a hard time. No one is forced to read this damn thing and to think someone would have the audacity to not only call themselves your friend while begrudging you a place to write but to be snarky enough to spill it in public sickens me. I love you babe, talk about your dirty socks in every entry if you want i'm still going to read.

On to the other stuff. Jerry the drunk? Still miss parts of him like the way he used to make my coffee. Joe? Still miss a few parts of him too. Imagine that. Last but not least I still miss Paul with every fiber of my being. I think about that one everyday.

I don't think you *ever* stop wanting the good parts of someone. You never stop loving those parts. I think you just get wise enough to know that the good parts don't outweigh the bad parts. In time as you ease back into life these things won't be on the forefront of your mind. They'll be a fleeting thought which quickly goes away with little to no pain. Hopefully in time, if not already, you'll be able to think back and smile about the love you shared the good times you had and the lessons you learned. You'll smile because the moment in time lasted as long as it should have and then it was over and you learned from it and became a better person for it.

[neenerface]

0o0o0o0o0o Bowie in that movie makes me hotter than hot.

/end silly girly moment