The gods help those that help themselves
Life is a cycle of beginnings and endings. You begin and you make decisions and you hope for the best and you live with your actions day in and day out. One of the most difficult decisions I have ever had to deal with has been looming on the horizon for a long time. Only recently, it hasn't been a far off item, it's been up close and personal.
See, I cannot reconcile myself with being completely responsible for another person. I can't be everything to that person and I can't let them be everything to me. I have realized there are some things I can live with and some things I cannot. At the end of the day, whether it be light or dark, I have to live with myself and my decisions. No one can make them for me and I hold the responsibility for my actions.
Something I've worked very hard for these last two years is coming to an end. I am sad and hurt and angry, but a tiny part of me is relieved. I don't know what kind of person that makes me, but I have to do what is right for me and everything else will either fall into place or won't.
See, I cannot reconcile myself with being completely responsible for another person. I can't be everything to that person and I can't let them be everything to me. I have realized there are some things I can live with and some things I cannot. At the end of the day, whether it be light or dark, I have to live with myself and my decisions. No one can make them for me and I hold the responsibility for my actions.
Something I've worked very hard for these last two years is coming to an end. I am sad and hurt and angry, but a tiny part of me is relieved. I don't know what kind of person that makes me, but I have to do what is right for me and everything else will either fall into place or won't.