I don't know how much more I can stand!
Ben is just getting on my nerves day after day after day! Thanksgiving Day was the worst ever. We argued the entire day almost. About anything and everything. I told him that I don't know if I want to be with him anymore because I don't know how much more fighting I can take. It's making me insane! Ben even asked me if I was bipolar. I told him that I haven't been diagnosed with anything. Then we went bowling and shot pool with Katie and Josh last night. We saw a couple of our friends there and our friend Brugh almost got into a fight. We'll Ben left me inside by myself to pay for the pool, when I had no cash on me. He went out their to "make sure nothing happened" between Brugh and the guy that he was going to fight. But when I walk out there, nothings going on. They're just standing there talking and joking. I'm glad that he just leaves me alone so he can go BS with his friends. Then he was wondering why I was mad. I love him but I really don't know if its the right time for us to be together. Maybe when we get out stuff together, becuase I do want to marry him and everything but we have too much going on right now. I think that maybe when we move in together, we won't argue as much. Well, at least I'm hoping!