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[rhomes]

I could have been a sailor, could have been
a cook
A real live lover, could have been a book
I could have been a signpost, could have been
a clock
As simple as a kettle, steady as a rock
I could be
Here and now
I would be. I should be
But how?
I could have been
One of these things first
I could have been
One of these things first.

been one of those times in my life.. where i feel greedy, a bastard, homesick, love-struck, depressed, stressed, lonely, selfish, a liar, a cheater, a sinner, and a thinker..
life isnt really where i want it to be.. but i try to make things easier on me.. but really i hate what this month is bringing.. i missed out on love.. and now i feel so bad about a lot of things.. things i dont really wanna discuss through everyone on here to read.. but you know.. i wont let it get the best of me too much.. i wrote song nick drake lyrics tonight because this song makes you think alot.. especially because your at that time in your life where you dont know where your going.. but if you think about it later.. it makes you wonder if you would of done one thing different just one.. and your life could be completely different.. secretely im scared for myself.. reasons i dont feel like telling why.. but hopefully the scale will balance out again and ill feel me again.. take care