have I changed?!?
something strange has been happening recently that makes me feel as though as a person, I've changed. There's this guy and he is totally obsessed with me. He's really romantic and all which I suppose is lovely-and he keeps on telling me all these things that a few months ago would have made me feel great about myself etc. However, these days, I'm finding it a real turn off and keep having to make excuses for myself and walk away or turn my phone off. It's probably a good thing that I'm feeling this...won't get me into any trouble!
anyway, there was also a dream I've had recently about a good friend of mine. He's lovely but there's now way anything would happen between us cos we messed that up a few years ago. However, when I've been around him, there's been that look. Before I had the dream, I ignored feelings. Pushed them aside and just got on with it. However, is my dream my subconscience telling me that it's all for real? nah, that sounds stupid- a dream telling you it's real...slightly contradictory don't you think?
ok, I suppose I ought to quit thinking huh? it hurts too much! (and Becky, please don't ask who either of these people are...you'd only roll your eyes and sigh at me!!!!!)
anyway, there was also a dream I've had recently about a good friend of mine. He's lovely but there's now way anything would happen between us cos we messed that up a few years ago. However, when I've been around him, there's been that look. Before I had the dream, I ignored feelings. Pushed them aside and just got on with it. However, is my dream my subconscience telling me that it's all for real? nah, that sounds stupid- a dream telling you it's real...slightly contradictory don't you think?
ok, I suppose I ought to quit thinking huh? it hurts too much! (and Becky, please don't ask who either of these people are...you'd only roll your eyes and sigh at me!!!!!)