Just get on with it
There's nothing I can do over the next couple of days to make things any better than they are as with the whole shitty situation over my mother's will. The only thing I can do is to make things better for myself. With that in mind I am going out to walk in the fresh air, enjoy the countryside and meet up with people I know.
I have had a number of counselling sessions which have helped me greatly, otherwise I would not be in a very good frame of mind. I have been able to see that I did do what I could for my mother, that I can mourn (and I do), and that I can get on with making my life better.
When I was travelling up and down to Saltcoats every weekend I acquired a netbook in order to keep in touch with what was going on in the world. I haven't really been using it so much of late but it occurs to me that I can and should use it as a writing tool. My handwriting has become so atrocious with constantly using keyboards at work and at home so using the netbook would be a better idea. I have already put Open Office on it and I think it would be useful for me to see what I can do. I used to do a lot of writing until I got distracted with other things and it's something I've always had a hankering to return to. At the very least it will get ideas down on pixels and out of my head where they simply roll around gathering speed, winding me up, doing me no good.
I have had a number of counselling sessions which have helped me greatly, otherwise I would not be in a very good frame of mind. I have been able to see that I did do what I could for my mother, that I can mourn (and I do), and that I can get on with making my life better.
When I was travelling up and down to Saltcoats every weekend I acquired a netbook in order to keep in touch with what was going on in the world. I haven't really been using it so much of late but it occurs to me that I can and should use it as a writing tool. My handwriting has become so atrocious with constantly using keyboards at work and at home so using the netbook would be a better idea. I have already put Open Office on it and I think it would be useful for me to see what I can do. I used to do a lot of writing until I got distracted with other things and it's something I've always had a hankering to return to. At the very least it will get ideas down on pixels and out of my head where they simply roll around gathering speed, winding me up, doing me no good.