Sometimes, somedays, you just need to admit you aren't coping and call Breathing Space. Because, damn it, I do need the odd hand up occasionally and there is no sense me suffering and being miserable out of nothing more than stupid pride. And getting it off my chest helps. If you need a boost, and you live in the UK, please don't hesitate to call them:
https://breathingspace.scot/how-we-can-help/need-to-talk/ It is a service that is there for a reason