hand in hand - forgotten
so being 26 has been full of things already.
life with morbid, has improved. i thought things WERE good. i was generally happy. we dont have big fights, we are very motivated, we agree on almost every decorative detail of our home, we share the chores and shop and sleep and eat together. we enjoy tv and our pup. nothing bad really. then it got better? yup.
i worked on my birthday. we had a delicious cake. i came home to a candle lit lobster dinner on the table. all cooked by morbid. he doesnt even like lobster. it was so sweet. he also got me a couple sweet gifts and then we got online and ordered our first ipods. it was pretty cool. i am still pretty stupid on how to use it, but i will get there.
work is getting better. there is still stress and drama but less of it is backstabbing and its gone back to stupid. the way it should be. i am doing my best to communicate and hopefully i can make it a little bit better when given the chance.
this whole knoxville thing is getting to me.
travis is playing in TN this weekend. erin and i talked about maybe going. so she offered to drive since i drove to jimmy, said it would be my birthday gift. cool, yay! well, then she invited chase. no big deal, i love chase BUT he has been skipping out at shows right after the band stops playing... and i never want to do that. i havent seen travis in over a year. this isnt JUST a show, its a chance for me to see a friend. so, i asked her if he would be cool and hang out for a few, because now, there is the added fact that he has to work monday at 1pm. she said he would but that we would need to drive back that night. again, no big deal. i explained that i am on night shift, SO it is easy for me to stay up late and i would really prefer to drive back that night anyway so that if i get home at 5 am it will be fine i can get all my sleep at one time, get up and go to work. BUT that means we have to take MY car. she still is offering to drive there, but i would need to drive back. THEN she tells me chase wants us to all go visit his mom in montecello before we go to the show. um... what? gas is 3.19 a gallon, and WAY beyond that, sunday is my day for me and morbid to spend time together. i dont want to leave until like 6 or 7 pm. and kate may be coming too, she cant go really early if she does. AND FINALLY, she tells me she herself couldnt get out of work and has to actually work at 9am the next morning.
so why the hell are we even going?? she already got all our tickets though, because this was her birthday gift to me. and i do honestly still really want to go, but there are waaaaaaaay too many restrictions and additions to this trip. so, i suggested we drive separately. that way they can go be around chases mom ( which i know erin will want to do because it will feel like it adds value to her place in chases life) and if they want to leave right after the show then they can. really, it just shot the idea of erin taking me to the show for my birthday to shit, pretty much because of her willingness to do anything for chase. thats fine. thats how girls are when they are crazy about a guy. i just cant get a handle on their "relationship". its pissed me off so many times in so many ways in the past that i am just tired of it. i feel like i am talking shit on them or her or something... but thats not what i am going for... its just the way it is. i am bummed out and i am bitching. oh well.
i am exhausted. goodnight.
life with morbid, has improved. i thought things WERE good. i was generally happy. we dont have big fights, we are very motivated, we agree on almost every decorative detail of our home, we share the chores and shop and sleep and eat together. we enjoy tv and our pup. nothing bad really. then it got better? yup.
i worked on my birthday. we had a delicious cake. i came home to a candle lit lobster dinner on the table. all cooked by morbid. he doesnt even like lobster. it was so sweet. he also got me a couple sweet gifts and then we got online and ordered our first ipods. it was pretty cool. i am still pretty stupid on how to use it, but i will get there.
work is getting better. there is still stress and drama but less of it is backstabbing and its gone back to stupid. the way it should be. i am doing my best to communicate and hopefully i can make it a little bit better when given the chance.
this whole knoxville thing is getting to me.
travis is playing in TN this weekend. erin and i talked about maybe going. so she offered to drive since i drove to jimmy, said it would be my birthday gift. cool, yay! well, then she invited chase. no big deal, i love chase BUT he has been skipping out at shows right after the band stops playing... and i never want to do that. i havent seen travis in over a year. this isnt JUST a show, its a chance for me to see a friend. so, i asked her if he would be cool and hang out for a few, because now, there is the added fact that he has to work monday at 1pm. she said he would but that we would need to drive back that night. again, no big deal. i explained that i am on night shift, SO it is easy for me to stay up late and i would really prefer to drive back that night anyway so that if i get home at 5 am it will be fine i can get all my sleep at one time, get up and go to work. BUT that means we have to take MY car. she still is offering to drive there, but i would need to drive back. THEN she tells me chase wants us to all go visit his mom in montecello before we go to the show. um... what? gas is 3.19 a gallon, and WAY beyond that, sunday is my day for me and morbid to spend time together. i dont want to leave until like 6 or 7 pm. and kate may be coming too, she cant go really early if she does. AND FINALLY, she tells me she herself couldnt get out of work and has to actually work at 9am the next morning.
so why the hell are we even going?? she already got all our tickets though, because this was her birthday gift to me. and i do honestly still really want to go, but there are waaaaaaaay too many restrictions and additions to this trip. so, i suggested we drive separately. that way they can go be around chases mom ( which i know erin will want to do because it will feel like it adds value to her place in chases life) and if they want to leave right after the show then they can. really, it just shot the idea of erin taking me to the show for my birthday to shit, pretty much because of her willingness to do anything for chase. thats fine. thats how girls are when they are crazy about a guy. i just cant get a handle on their "relationship". its pissed me off so many times in so many ways in the past that i am just tired of it. i feel like i am talking shit on them or her or something... but thats not what i am going for... its just the way it is. i am bummed out and i am bitching. oh well.
i am exhausted. goodnight.