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Things are just getting on top of me at the moment and I'm getting pretty miserable!
My job at school is great and challenging and I am enjoying it despite the serious workload in the evenings! But all I can say is THANK GOD! it is half term next week!! I need the break!
I have never really felt like I needed a break from things before, but I am feeling like that at the moment! I need to go away somewhere and just chill out and some of the things that I like to do, which I don't get to do anymore because of work and because I keep my weekends clear to spend quality time with someone who just goes off and plays golf followed by going to the pub! Fun times! NOT!
There is never any compromise on his part and I never get to do anything that I want to do, or things that I want to do with him. Our weekends seem to be dictated by his wanker of a best friend who is quite frankly, totally obnoxious!
I don't feel happy and he is being utterly selfish. Things have been weird for the last few weeks and I'm beginning to seriously question whether it is worth all this. Whenever I try to talk to him about how I'm feeling he gets totally defensive and gets grumpy, and I can never explain to him that I'm feeling crap because he won't listen! - that isn't a good sign is it!?!
I'm trying so hard to do things for him and to arrange things for us to do and when I do he never wants to do them! I want to go surfing, or go for walks, or go out for a day trip or have a nice lunch in a nice country pub, or just do something together but it never happens!!!!!!! His idea of us spending time together is spending it with his and our friends - yea that works!! AARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I need help!
And on top of all this I have a very difficult coursework to do and I have 2 weeks in which to finish it and if I'm totally honest - I don't want to do it anymore - it is too much with everything else that I am trying to deal with at the moment!!!!
My job at school is great and challenging and I am enjoying it despite the serious workload in the evenings! But all I can say is THANK GOD! it is half term next week!! I need the break!
I have never really felt like I needed a break from things before, but I am feeling like that at the moment! I need to go away somewhere and just chill out and some of the things that I like to do, which I don't get to do anymore because of work and because I keep my weekends clear to spend quality time with someone who just goes off and plays golf followed by going to the pub! Fun times! NOT!
There is never any compromise on his part and I never get to do anything that I want to do, or things that I want to do with him. Our weekends seem to be dictated by his wanker of a best friend who is quite frankly, totally obnoxious!
I don't feel happy and he is being utterly selfish. Things have been weird for the last few weeks and I'm beginning to seriously question whether it is worth all this. Whenever I try to talk to him about how I'm feeling he gets totally defensive and gets grumpy, and I can never explain to him that I'm feeling crap because he won't listen! - that isn't a good sign is it!?!
I'm trying so hard to do things for him and to arrange things for us to do and when I do he never wants to do them! I want to go surfing, or go for walks, or go out for a day trip or have a nice lunch in a nice country pub, or just do something together but it never happens!!!!!!! His idea of us spending time together is spending it with his and our friends - yea that works!! AARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!! I need help!
And on top of all this I have a very difficult coursework to do and I have 2 weeks in which to finish it and if I'm totally honest - I don't want to do it anymore - it is too much with everything else that I am trying to deal with at the moment!!!!