sweat, fresh water, rain
such a day. i talked to maia for most of it; damn, do i miss her. she's in mississippi, starting skool at a big and scary university. she's living in a dorm and i'm going to write her a quatrain. she's avoiding her roommate and i'm recommending country albums. she's getting lost looking for the bookstore and i'm ordering pepper spray. it's tough not to do this together. but it makes me feel sort of proud.
i've got plane tickets. it's finally resolved that i am going because i have, in fact, plane tickets. this has been a hard week and a half, and i've filled it up with a lot of late nights, like this one is leaning toward. but i have to have to have to go to the itc admission orientation tomorrow. i've been in dereliction of duty and i don't know why, just; last week was off, i guess. i have to buy clothes.
there were a lot a lot of people on campus today, which is not nearly as many as there will be next week; oh my god. i don't know how i'm going to readjust to that many students all over again. i wish i had my old blue shoes. those were the best shoes. this is an important chapter in my life. is this an important chapter in my life, or am i trying to convince myself? am i jumping the gun? life seems to be happening in vignettes, and i don't want to carry the ones that sink. i know what it's like at bottom.
it was a gift and not a return.
i've got plane tickets. it's finally resolved that i am going because i have, in fact, plane tickets. this has been a hard week and a half, and i've filled it up with a lot of late nights, like this one is leaning toward. but i have to have to have to go to the itc admission orientation tomorrow. i've been in dereliction of duty and i don't know why, just; last week was off, i guess. i have to buy clothes.
there were a lot a lot of people on campus today, which is not nearly as many as there will be next week; oh my god. i don't know how i'm going to readjust to that many students all over again. i wish i had my old blue shoes. those were the best shoes. this is an important chapter in my life. is this an important chapter in my life, or am i trying to convince myself? am i jumping the gun? life seems to be happening in vignettes, and i don't want to carry the ones that sink. i know what it's like at bottom.
it was a gift and not a return.