stuff.
tonight me austin lauren alexis derek kautz and justin cupples rode around.. yadda yadda yadda it was a boring night you dont need the details.
jeremy pisses me off the way he acts around amanda. pssh whatever. he's the stupidest boy ALIVE. i swear to dirt he is.
i took my name off the list for Stu. Co. sorry, but i don't wanna do it. i had a long serious talk with austin last night and it had NOTHING AT ALL to do with anything remotely related to Stu Co but it discouraged me.
He told me that he didnt feel comfortable like sharing his FEELINGS on things with me.. and he said if he was hurting that he would never tell me.. and just stuff like that.. and it made me hurt real bad because he's my boyfriend and he's supposed to tell me that stuff.. his problems and what worries him and all that.. so after a long while of me crying and hanging up on him then making him text message me because i didnt want to talk he finally broke down and told me his problems. he said no one understood and he knew i wouldnt understand, and i did understand his PROBLEM.. but i didnt understand how he FELT about it. u know? but i told him that i loved him very much and that i am trying to help and im sorry he doesnt feel like i understand but i wont understand everything and sometimes i will understand a lot of things and he said thank you so much i love you so much more than you know and i am so lucky to have you.
:) he said he was LUCKY to have me. damn right. about time he figured that one out.
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