Sep 26, 2004 17:35
My mind is so at peace right now. I can do nothing but do my homework. I don't think I've ever had as much motivation to do something as I have to do my homework today.
I just feel so relaxed. I really like this feeling. I can do nothing but what is laid on my heart.
I have a real drive to succeed at being a teacher. I just feel like I need to be and that feeling has just gotten stronger. I just feel like I fit the description as to what a teacher is supposed to be like.
I'm a very kind, learning how to be patient, I'm learning to control my temper, and to slow down my thought so that my speech is slower and I say less and less all the time.
I know that to be a teacher I have to be able to do all these things. I have faith in myself so that I know that I can do all of that. God has given me the motivation to do what I need to do to be able to achieve my goals.
I have less and less thoughts all the time. I like it this way and I don't think I ever want it to change. I also find that I used more and more contractions all the time. I have no idea what that means, but oh well.
All that is going on in my life right now if I were to think about it, I think I might go crazy, but I have been given the means to do what I need to do and not worry about what I need to do in the next minute. I'm learning to live in the moment and no where else.
That is what a teacher has to do, they must live in the moment. They can't go worrying about what a student might say or do in a later class or even in a few minutes. They must learn to not be thinking other thoughts, while a student is asking them questions. That would just be rude.
I like this new found motivation that I have been instilled with for the past few hours.
Nothing has distracted me all this time. I think I found out how to relax myself. How exciting, I can finally be at peace with myself.
I really like this new found feeling. I'm happy but not overly happy. I just like who I am now.