let that city take you down
last night after running, i sat outside of my apartment on the stairs. the weather was nice. maybe i'm the only one, but there are times when like 50 billion thoughts run through my mind at the same time and i feel like the only way of relieving myself of so many thoughts is to share as many as i can with someone. so i called jake. i don't know WHY because he never answers or returns my calls anymore. thanks for totally sucking. i didn't feel like talking to anyone else. i got really angry. i went inside and sat in my living room in complete darkness forever. it was stupid and i didn't know why i was doing it. but whatever, i was mad, and i get irrational when i'm mad.
this morning/afternoon i had to spend a thousand hours at the doctor's office. they took all these stupid tests and stuck needles inside me for hours. they rubbed gel on my chest. they stuck square things all around my boobs. they injected radiation into me. they made me lie in this ridiculous position on my back for half and hour while this big machine circled my body. i had to run with things attached to me. i even had to get a pregnancy test, what the fuck. two doctors asked me if i was jewish. one of them tried to convert me. he also touched my boob and said it felt unusually firm because he's used to dealing with old women. i know already. i'm 19 and like the only kid my age with high cholesterol. i don't want to have to do this for the rest of my life.
in other news, i read the alchemist today. good book. and jason and i had a heated debate about judaism and israel while eating dinner. which was from charley's. i was like, whatever, even though i hate jake's guts right now. he was like, what do you want? we're out of salads. and that just made me even more mad. stop making yourself feel like a badass just because you know me. and later i was like, thanks for calling me back, and he's like, i was sleeping. uhh ok, it was fucking 9:30. i didn't make a big deal out of it but i should have. but anyway, the debate was nice. a nice, intelligent conversation for once. that's what i miss about me and jason: in high school that's like all we did. now we just talk about less mature things. evolution. what can you do.
i'm really gonna miss it here.
facebook did not make transferring easy for me.
this morning/afternoon i had to spend a thousand hours at the doctor's office. they took all these stupid tests and stuck needles inside me for hours. they rubbed gel on my chest. they stuck square things all around my boobs. they injected radiation into me. they made me lie in this ridiculous position on my back for half and hour while this big machine circled my body. i had to run with things attached to me. i even had to get a pregnancy test, what the fuck. two doctors asked me if i was jewish. one of them tried to convert me. he also touched my boob and said it felt unusually firm because he's used to dealing with old women. i know already. i'm 19 and like the only kid my age with high cholesterol. i don't want to have to do this for the rest of my life.
in other news, i read the alchemist today. good book. and jason and i had a heated debate about judaism and israel while eating dinner. which was from charley's. i was like, whatever, even though i hate jake's guts right now. he was like, what do you want? we're out of salads. and that just made me even more mad. stop making yourself feel like a badass just because you know me. and later i was like, thanks for calling me back, and he's like, i was sleeping. uhh ok, it was fucking 9:30. i didn't make a big deal out of it but i should have. but anyway, the debate was nice. a nice, intelligent conversation for once. that's what i miss about me and jason: in high school that's like all we did. now we just talk about less mature things. evolution. what can you do.
i'm really gonna miss it here.
facebook did not make transferring easy for me.