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[rhapsodyinplaid]

it's funny how all of the little things in life matter more than the future when your heart becomes involved in your life again. right now, i want to see my mom happy again. i want it more than anything else in the world. she's so depressed from loosing her mothing, her job, and soon her daughter. im spending as much time with her as i can, painting her pictures, writing her songs, and even (sucking it up and) taking her to church, but nothing seems to be enough. i cant cure her depression. or anyone else's really, plenty of my friends are deeply suffering too. i want to rebuild the world for everyone but i dont know how to. i want to show them all just how beautiful and amazing they are to me, and i try to, but no one seems to see what i see. i cant even cheer people up with all of the beauty around them. the leaves are never as bright and graceful, the flowers after the rain dont smell as sweet, and no one wants to go outside or stay up late and enjoy the moon and the stars.

sorry for the complaining, i need to get it out though. i have a theory that we can never understand what each other are going through, but if someone else knows then you're not alone in it anymore. i'm always glad to help, but i'll be glad when this all passes and we can all laugh and play again in harmony.

inner peace, love to all, and happiness forever
-alex