the end of an era
tonight one of the bravest women in my life passed away. my hero/mother is in kentucky this week with her brother and sister, taking in yet another hard blow to the heart and soul of her being. if you believe in a god or even just in hope, please keep my family in your prayers and meditations. i hope that her god listens and holds her close the way so many on life tried to. my god doesn't seem to exist right now but i see unwavering love in so many of my family and friends that i do have hope.
life isn't fair. all my gradmother had left to love and live for was her family and we were taken away from her. her last week of life was spent numb and in a state of confussion and oblivion. she knew how much she was loved, but she died alone in her mind in those last few moments. all we had left was who she was and in that last week, my hero/mother had to say goodbye to a stranger. if you pray, please ask your god to reunite herself with her stregnth and for us to only remember the good times.
life isn't fair. living every day with people you love never knowing if it'll be your last moment shared is so hard on your soul. my parents are older and have health problems that we can't afford to fix and retiredment looks about as distant as that master degree my her/mother wants me to get. i don't know if they'll see me graduate from college, get married, or meet their grandchildren.
please if you do pray or meditate or even just reflect, don't just direct these thoughts to something higher and unknown, inform everyone that you love becuase that love can be seen, felt, heard, and is directly sent back to you. i dont understand very much of life since i've lived so little but i do know that people are worth sacrificing for. careers, success, and money aren't going to surround your death bed. the only real comforts that you have in life are the people you share time and love with, those who you let into your soul and breathe life into you when you've lost your own. i'm in so much pain tonight but i know that i can get through this by taking it slowly and cherrishing what i still have.
peace love and happiness
- alex
life isn't fair. all my gradmother had left to love and live for was her family and we were taken away from her. her last week of life was spent numb and in a state of confussion and oblivion. she knew how much she was loved, but she died alone in her mind in those last few moments. all we had left was who she was and in that last week, my hero/mother had to say goodbye to a stranger. if you pray, please ask your god to reunite herself with her stregnth and for us to only remember the good times.
life isn't fair. living every day with people you love never knowing if it'll be your last moment shared is so hard on your soul. my parents are older and have health problems that we can't afford to fix and retiredment looks about as distant as that master degree my her/mother wants me to get. i don't know if they'll see me graduate from college, get married, or meet their grandchildren.
please if you do pray or meditate or even just reflect, don't just direct these thoughts to something higher and unknown, inform everyone that you love becuase that love can be seen, felt, heard, and is directly sent back to you. i dont understand very much of life since i've lived so little but i do know that people are worth sacrificing for. careers, success, and money aren't going to surround your death bed. the only real comforts that you have in life are the people you share time and love with, those who you let into your soul and breathe life into you when you've lost your own. i'm in so much pain tonight but i know that i can get through this by taking it slowly and cherrishing what i still have.
peace love and happiness
- alex