A fleeting, painful thought...
Lately, my sleep schedule has been all fucked up. I stayed awake for almost 2 days straight trying to turn around my sleep schedule and stick w/Andy's crazy military shift so I could spend as much time with him as possible before I move back to LA. We had so much fun going to Hard Rock Park and hanging out, but now I am so exhausted.
I am so tired and I look awful. We were getting ready to go grocery shopping and I nearly had a meltdown because I can't handle the way I look right now. I know. That is so vain. But that's what I think about myself. I can't look in a mirror. And I wonder if this is what happens when you get married and (dreaded words) "let yourself go." My GOD! Am I to that point ALREADY???? I swore I would never let it get to that point!! I need to sleep again. I need to get a haircut or a pedicure or SOMETHING to help me feel pretty.
I am probably the most vain person I know. I know it sounds stupid, but it still hurts.
I am so tired and I look awful. We were getting ready to go grocery shopping and I nearly had a meltdown because I can't handle the way I look right now. I know. That is so vain. But that's what I think about myself. I can't look in a mirror. And I wonder if this is what happens when you get married and (dreaded words) "let yourself go." My GOD! Am I to that point ALREADY???? I swore I would never let it get to that point!! I need to sleep again. I need to get a haircut or a pedicure or SOMETHING to help me feel pretty.
I am probably the most vain person I know. I know it sounds stupid, but it still hurts.