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melancholy seems to be the popular mood of the moment. it is mine anyway.
i really miss my friends in santa cruz. they kept me sane. i never thanked them enough. sierra's not there to pour coffee down my throat, and leave me behind with her stupid long-legged strides. and tina's not here to help me beat the crap out of people at hardcore shows, and see scary movies with then sleep over in my itsy bitsy room. james isn't here to offer me his computer to play WoW on, or lend me his kitchen and teach me to surf. pam isn't here to help me ace econ, and watch america's next top model with me. nate can't provide me with korean dramas, or witty, sarcastic banter.
it's really quite difficult not having many friends down here. i was so used to having my friends to laugh with, to cry with. i'm afraid that when i'm attending ucsd, when i cry, i'll be alone. and i won't even laugh.
i feel lonely. i even called my grandmother. if it wasn't 1:30 in the morning, i'd go take a walk. if gas didn't cost my college tuition, i'd drive around like i did summer of senior year when i needed to think. damn.
i really really miss you guys.
i really miss my friends in santa cruz. they kept me sane. i never thanked them enough. sierra's not there to pour coffee down my throat, and leave me behind with her stupid long-legged strides. and tina's not here to help me beat the crap out of people at hardcore shows, and see scary movies with then sleep over in my itsy bitsy room. james isn't here to offer me his computer to play WoW on, or lend me his kitchen and teach me to surf. pam isn't here to help me ace econ, and watch america's next top model with me. nate can't provide me with korean dramas, or witty, sarcastic banter.
it's really quite difficult not having many friends down here. i was so used to having my friends to laugh with, to cry with. i'm afraid that when i'm attending ucsd, when i cry, i'll be alone. and i won't even laugh.
i feel lonely. i even called my grandmother. if it wasn't 1:30 in the morning, i'd go take a walk. if gas didn't cost my college tuition, i'd drive around like i did summer of senior year when i needed to think. damn.
i really really miss you guys.