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Here With You II
Title: Here With You part 2.
Pairing : Ohmiya
Rating : G.I mean PG-13
Genre : IDK.Romantic?
Word Count : 2053
AN: The sequel.Unbeta. The ending was written when i was a little sleepy.Forgive me ne people. xD
Jun died four years ago. I have since been with Ohno. I love him as much as Jun had loved him if not more. But he never took notice of this. I am like the background music. Being there just for the sake of being there. Never too important for him to be noticed.
It’s April again. Tomorrow will be the anniversary of Jun’s death. I know exactly how the day is going to be. Ohno will be in his room, alone, the whole day to paint portraits of Jun that he will display in one of his small exhibitions. I told him to actually make a bigger exhibition but he decides not to. His reason is because he doesn’t want too many people staring at Jun. Especially when he takes extra care in painting Jun’s beautiful eyes which now belongs to him.
It always makes me wondering if ever he will notice me. The way I look at him, the amount of effort I take for each dinner I make for him, not even the love I have for him. All he can see is Jun and Jun alone. In fact there are pictures of Jun, framed everywhere around the house. I have seen his phone once and saw their picture together as his wallpaper. It hurts, but I know that it would be impossible for him to ever forget what he had with Jun. And for me, when Jun died, Ohno’s spirit had gone too. His ability to love others disappear and his attention for me vanished.
‘Hey Nino. Don’t make him forget me. Just make him move on will you? I know how much you love him. And I believe he loves you just as much.’
It isn’t the first time that Jun appears in my dream. I have been having the same dream for at least 4 times. It’s almost seem like a yearly thing that Jun does to me. Every time, he will say the exact same thing to me. Just how am I supposed to confess to Ohno when everything in this house reminds me of Jun and making me feel terribly guilty at each moment that I think of loving Ohno? I can’t just face Ohno with Jun’s essence around and tell him that I love him in front of someone he loves so much. The only thing I can do is stay in the corner and love him from afar.
Morning come and go. But this morning feels different from any other day. I can smell something sweet from the kitchen. Ohno is definitely making pasta. The one Jun had always done when he was still alive. I never wish he will stop cooking, but whenever he cook that particular pasta, I feel depress. I know how I shouldn’t feel this way but I can’t help it any other way.
“Nino, ohaiyou. I made lunch. You woke up very late today. Anyway, try the sauce. I think it’s fantastic.”
“Honestly Ohchan, don’t be so vain.haha”
The laugh isn’t real. How can it be when the moment I tasted the sauce, images of Jun flashes through my mind. It almost made me dizzy.
“Ohchan.Umai! I love it!”
Nobody knows how painful it feels to lie to the one you love. It wasn’t and will never be easy. But it’s harder to tell him the truth. I see Ohno’s eyes glowed with joy. He had been working on the sauce to have that taste for the past few months and I am not the one who is going to be breaking his heart. I don’t have the strength to do so. Especially when my heart had already crumbled to billions of pieces. Sometimes I honestly think that only a death can make Ohno realize the ones who love him very much.
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“Hontou ni Nino. Why can’t you just be true to him? Just tell him everything already.” Sho kept telling me that. But nobody ever try to understand how I feel inside. I feel like betraying Jun every time I thought of being with Ohno as someone more than just friend. It’s never easy.
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I’m home late and I can see that Ohno is sleeping on the couch. Drunken. He must have had too much sake. I can’t help to think how smokingly hot he look lying there with red face though at the back of my mind, I can feel Jun’s eye lurking on us. I can’t help myself stopping from caressing his hair. It has been something I really wanted to do ever since we met again. I took the chance to feel his slightly brown soft hair. They smell really nice. I wonder what kind of shampoo does he use to clean them. I must have been playing with his hair for more than a minute when Ohno woke up.
“Hey.. You’re home.” Drunken Ohno smiles at me and before I can even return his smile, I felt his lips against mine. Wait! I don’t think I have made any move advancing to his position. My mind is blurring within seconds. The only sensible thing I can think of it how sweet Ohno tastes like even when there is an after taste of sake lingering. If that isn’t sensible, I don’t know if returning the kisses can be considered as one.
When I wake up in the morning, the first thing I realize is how warm it is today and how comforting to have someone’s arms around you when you sleep. I look up to see looking at me. Apparently, he had woken up much earlier than me. You have to give this guy a credit at being able to recover from hangover that fast.
“Nino, what happened?”
The question ripped every happy feeling I had since yesterday. I can’t control my feeling and start to cry hard. How can he not remember what we had last night? How can it be that I remember every kiss and every touch we shared? How can he look as if it’s normal to find himself in a bed with another person in an obviously provocative manner? Look at my left hand. It’s on his freaking butt!
“I’m sorry Ohchan.. I can’t remember anything too. I think we both drank too much. I’m really very sorry Ohchan..” I can’t bring myself to scold Ohno. I love him that much.
“Ah.. It’s okay Nino. Don’t cry. I think nothing much happened. I should go get ready now. It’s Saturday and there’s gonna be a sale. I’m going to buy some painting supplies. Following?” His smile is making me breathless. If only last night last forever, I won’t be crying this way. The strength to actually say no is lost. I can only shake my head and buried myself in the cover, finding sleep to calm myself. I lost myself to him. I lost myself to Jun. And most importantly, I lost myself to me.
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Two days since we slept together. Ohno made an altar for Jun and is now placing all Jun’s framed pictures at the handmade altar. Jun’s pictures disappear bit by bit from around the house. But with a specially designated altar, I believe I still can’t surpass the love he has for Jun. And today, I have decided to do something. For myself.
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Kyoto is such a beautiful place. I have been staying here since the past 3 days. Nobody seems to be remembering me. Nobody calls me. Not even Ohno. To think that I actually glances at the phone every 20 seconds only makes me feel a lot more frustrated. I wonder if even thinks of me. Work over here in Kyoto finishes today. I’ll be going back to Tokyo tonight. I just hope that Ohno hasn’t decided to make me move out of the house.
“Nino! Where have you been for the past 3 days?” Ohno is certainly a weird man. He’s worried about me when I’m actually right in front of his face.
“Ohno-kun. I have been making sure that my phone stays on 24 hours. You didn’t even bother to call me. I’m okay now. You don’t have to worry about someone going missing after they turned up. It should be before they turned up.”
“I would’ve called if you have not taken my phone and took yours instead. You know I never remember anyone’s number. Sho and Aiba are in Shanghai and your phone has 0 numbers on the list. Are you friendless or something? At least save my number. I thought I’m at least your best friend and housemate.”
Did I really take his phone? We do have the same brand of phone. Something that Jun had bought for us. A set of 3 phones. The exact same color and model. He could be so weird sometimes. But I remember Ohno’s wallpaper. It shouldn’t be this picture. This is the picture on my phone. The picture of Ohno and me when we went to the beach. Examining the phone carefully, I can see a tiny carving that says “Ohno Satoshi” at the back of the phone. But the wallpaper?
I haven’t been able to say anything when Ohno handed me my phone and takes his phone away. At the same time grumbling about how much he worries about me and how he missed me.
‘Wait. Chotto matte! He misses me?’
“Ohno-kun…”
“Ohchan desu”
Fine.Tsk
“Ohchan.. You said.. You. Missed. Me?”
“Of course I do baka. I don’t get to peep at your sleeping face, tuck you into your blanket. You seriously have a bad habit when you’re sleeping Nino. And I miss pecking on your forehead before you wake up. Plus, I’m so sick and tired of cooking for one person. It’s not fun at all. And yes. I miss you.”
Everything dawned to me. Maybe he cooked his best to feed me his best. Maybe he made the altar to put all Jun’s pictures to make me feel more comfortable living here without the shadows of Jun. Maybe… Just maybe, he’s making all these gestures to actually tell me how he is feeling about me. And maybe, I’m crying too much.
“Nino.. Please don’t cry. You know I can’t see you cry. I promise I will never ever be angry with you anymore. I’m just glad you’re fine.”
“Why.. Do you miss me?” I thought that asking if he loves me too would be stupid.
“Because you were away of course.”
Ouh. This is not good.
“Because you’re the cutest person I’ve ever known.”
So?
“Because my heart simply longs for you.”
Now that melts my heart.
“Stop grinning Nino and come here already. Let me hold you for a little while before we dine. I made sakana lasagna.” Euw..
Ohno is the most stupid man ever breath in this world. Too subtle in telling me what he feels. Never showing me truly of what he thinks. But I know, I am exactly the same fool as he is. Perhaps this is why we are meant to be together. I truly love Ohno for his being and ready to accept anything about him. Except that fish lasagna. That has to go.
“Thank you, Jun”
What? He’s huggling me and he’s thanking Jun?
“Ohno-san. You are making me mad. I’m not Jun. I am Ninomiya Kazunari!” And he should really stop laughing. Urgh. Sometimes Ohno can be unbearable.
“A few months ago, Jun came into my dream. He told me that I’m a stupid person for not telling you how much I love you. Only when you went missing that I realized, I should have been saying those word everyday possible. So this is my promise Nino, I’ll have my love confession everyday. Because I really love you Nino. As much as possible."
Jun, thank you.
“I love you too Ohchan. And let’s throw away the lasagna. I’ll make you food.”
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Looking from above, Jun smiled his best and felt his heart glowed more than ever. He’s glad he helped both of them to find their love. Now all he needs is to persuade those two bakas into adopting a child and naming him Jun. That will be the greatest thing ever.
Well unless they decided to adopt a girl. That is a very dangerous idea.
End~
I hope you have enjoyed it! ^^
Pairing : Ohmiya
Rating : G.I mean PG-13
Genre : IDK.Romantic?
Word Count : 2053
AN: The sequel.Unbeta. The ending was written when i was a little sleepy.Forgive me ne people. xD
Jun died four years ago. I have since been with Ohno. I love him as much as Jun had loved him if not more. But he never took notice of this. I am like the background music. Being there just for the sake of being there. Never too important for him to be noticed.
It’s April again. Tomorrow will be the anniversary of Jun’s death. I know exactly how the day is going to be. Ohno will be in his room, alone, the whole day to paint portraits of Jun that he will display in one of his small exhibitions. I told him to actually make a bigger exhibition but he decides not to. His reason is because he doesn’t want too many people staring at Jun. Especially when he takes extra care in painting Jun’s beautiful eyes which now belongs to him.
It always makes me wondering if ever he will notice me. The way I look at him, the amount of effort I take for each dinner I make for him, not even the love I have for him. All he can see is Jun and Jun alone. In fact there are pictures of Jun, framed everywhere around the house. I have seen his phone once and saw their picture together as his wallpaper. It hurts, but I know that it would be impossible for him to ever forget what he had with Jun. And for me, when Jun died, Ohno’s spirit had gone too. His ability to love others disappear and his attention for me vanished.
‘Hey Nino. Don’t make him forget me. Just make him move on will you? I know how much you love him. And I believe he loves you just as much.’
It isn’t the first time that Jun appears in my dream. I have been having the same dream for at least 4 times. It’s almost seem like a yearly thing that Jun does to me. Every time, he will say the exact same thing to me. Just how am I supposed to confess to Ohno when everything in this house reminds me of Jun and making me feel terribly guilty at each moment that I think of loving Ohno? I can’t just face Ohno with Jun’s essence around and tell him that I love him in front of someone he loves so much. The only thing I can do is stay in the corner and love him from afar.
Morning come and go. But this morning feels different from any other day. I can smell something sweet from the kitchen. Ohno is definitely making pasta. The one Jun had always done when he was still alive. I never wish he will stop cooking, but whenever he cook that particular pasta, I feel depress. I know how I shouldn’t feel this way but I can’t help it any other way.
“Nino, ohaiyou. I made lunch. You woke up very late today. Anyway, try the sauce. I think it’s fantastic.”
“Honestly Ohchan, don’t be so vain.haha”
The laugh isn’t real. How can it be when the moment I tasted the sauce, images of Jun flashes through my mind. It almost made me dizzy.
“Ohchan.Umai! I love it!”
Nobody knows how painful it feels to lie to the one you love. It wasn’t and will never be easy. But it’s harder to tell him the truth. I see Ohno’s eyes glowed with joy. He had been working on the sauce to have that taste for the past few months and I am not the one who is going to be breaking his heart. I don’t have the strength to do so. Especially when my heart had already crumbled to billions of pieces. Sometimes I honestly think that only a death can make Ohno realize the ones who love him very much.
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“Hontou ni Nino. Why can’t you just be true to him? Just tell him everything already.” Sho kept telling me that. But nobody ever try to understand how I feel inside. I feel like betraying Jun every time I thought of being with Ohno as someone more than just friend. It’s never easy.
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I’m home late and I can see that Ohno is sleeping on the couch. Drunken. He must have had too much sake. I can’t help to think how smokingly hot he look lying there with red face though at the back of my mind, I can feel Jun’s eye lurking on us. I can’t help myself stopping from caressing his hair. It has been something I really wanted to do ever since we met again. I took the chance to feel his slightly brown soft hair. They smell really nice. I wonder what kind of shampoo does he use to clean them. I must have been playing with his hair for more than a minute when Ohno woke up.
“Hey.. You’re home.” Drunken Ohno smiles at me and before I can even return his smile, I felt his lips against mine. Wait! I don’t think I have made any move advancing to his position. My mind is blurring within seconds. The only sensible thing I can think of it how sweet Ohno tastes like even when there is an after taste of sake lingering. If that isn’t sensible, I don’t know if returning the kisses can be considered as one.
When I wake up in the morning, the first thing I realize is how warm it is today and how comforting to have someone’s arms around you when you sleep. I look up to see looking at me. Apparently, he had woken up much earlier than me. You have to give this guy a credit at being able to recover from hangover that fast.
“Nino, what happened?”
The question ripped every happy feeling I had since yesterday. I can’t control my feeling and start to cry hard. How can he not remember what we had last night? How can it be that I remember every kiss and every touch we shared? How can he look as if it’s normal to find himself in a bed with another person in an obviously provocative manner? Look at my left hand. It’s on his freaking butt!
“I’m sorry Ohchan.. I can’t remember anything too. I think we both drank too much. I’m really very sorry Ohchan..” I can’t bring myself to scold Ohno. I love him that much.
“Ah.. It’s okay Nino. Don’t cry. I think nothing much happened. I should go get ready now. It’s Saturday and there’s gonna be a sale. I’m going to buy some painting supplies. Following?” His smile is making me breathless. If only last night last forever, I won’t be crying this way. The strength to actually say no is lost. I can only shake my head and buried myself in the cover, finding sleep to calm myself. I lost myself to him. I lost myself to Jun. And most importantly, I lost myself to me.
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Two days since we slept together. Ohno made an altar for Jun and is now placing all Jun’s framed pictures at the handmade altar. Jun’s pictures disappear bit by bit from around the house. But with a specially designated altar, I believe I still can’t surpass the love he has for Jun. And today, I have decided to do something. For myself.
-------------
Kyoto is such a beautiful place. I have been staying here since the past 3 days. Nobody seems to be remembering me. Nobody calls me. Not even Ohno. To think that I actually glances at the phone every 20 seconds only makes me feel a lot more frustrated. I wonder if even thinks of me. Work over here in Kyoto finishes today. I’ll be going back to Tokyo tonight. I just hope that Ohno hasn’t decided to make me move out of the house.
“Nino! Where have you been for the past 3 days?” Ohno is certainly a weird man. He’s worried about me when I’m actually right in front of his face.
“Ohno-kun. I have been making sure that my phone stays on 24 hours. You didn’t even bother to call me. I’m okay now. You don’t have to worry about someone going missing after they turned up. It should be before they turned up.”
“I would’ve called if you have not taken my phone and took yours instead. You know I never remember anyone’s number. Sho and Aiba are in Shanghai and your phone has 0 numbers on the list. Are you friendless or something? At least save my number. I thought I’m at least your best friend and housemate.”
Did I really take his phone? We do have the same brand of phone. Something that Jun had bought for us. A set of 3 phones. The exact same color and model. He could be so weird sometimes. But I remember Ohno’s wallpaper. It shouldn’t be this picture. This is the picture on my phone. The picture of Ohno and me when we went to the beach. Examining the phone carefully, I can see a tiny carving that says “Ohno Satoshi” at the back of the phone. But the wallpaper?
I haven’t been able to say anything when Ohno handed me my phone and takes his phone away. At the same time grumbling about how much he worries about me and how he missed me.
‘Wait. Chotto matte! He misses me?’
“Ohno-kun…”
“Ohchan desu”
Fine.Tsk
“Ohchan.. You said.. You. Missed. Me?”
“Of course I do baka. I don’t get to peep at your sleeping face, tuck you into your blanket. You seriously have a bad habit when you’re sleeping Nino. And I miss pecking on your forehead before you wake up. Plus, I’m so sick and tired of cooking for one person. It’s not fun at all. And yes. I miss you.”
Everything dawned to me. Maybe he cooked his best to feed me his best. Maybe he made the altar to put all Jun’s pictures to make me feel more comfortable living here without the shadows of Jun. Maybe… Just maybe, he’s making all these gestures to actually tell me how he is feeling about me. And maybe, I’m crying too much.
“Nino.. Please don’t cry. You know I can’t see you cry. I promise I will never ever be angry with you anymore. I’m just glad you’re fine.”
“Why.. Do you miss me?” I thought that asking if he loves me too would be stupid.
“Because you were away of course.”
Ouh. This is not good.
“Because you’re the cutest person I’ve ever known.”
So?
“Because my heart simply longs for you.”
Now that melts my heart.
“Stop grinning Nino and come here already. Let me hold you for a little while before we dine. I made sakana lasagna.” Euw..
Ohno is the most stupid man ever breath in this world. Too subtle in telling me what he feels. Never showing me truly of what he thinks. But I know, I am exactly the same fool as he is. Perhaps this is why we are meant to be together. I truly love Ohno for his being and ready to accept anything about him. Except that fish lasagna. That has to go.
“Thank you, Jun”
What? He’s huggling me and he’s thanking Jun?
“Ohno-san. You are making me mad. I’m not Jun. I am Ninomiya Kazunari!” And he should really stop laughing. Urgh. Sometimes Ohno can be unbearable.
“A few months ago, Jun came into my dream. He told me that I’m a stupid person for not telling you how much I love you. Only when you went missing that I realized, I should have been saying those word everyday possible. So this is my promise Nino, I’ll have my love confession everyday. Because I really love you Nino. As much as possible."
Jun, thank you.
“I love you too Ohchan. And let’s throw away the lasagna. I’ll make you food.”
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Looking from above, Jun smiled his best and felt his heart glowed more than ever. He’s glad he helped both of them to find their love. Now all he needs is to persuade those two bakas into adopting a child and naming him Jun. That will be the greatest thing ever.
Well unless they decided to adopt a girl. That is a very dangerous idea.
End~
I hope you have enjoyed it! ^^