I found myself doing it again today...
I sat in that dark theater, with the picture right in front of me. I am shaped as a ball in the seat, sucking on my fingers, tugging at my hair and face and shaking. And the tears welt up, though i feel nothing. For i am not there. The room disappears and i do not exist. The only left is the screen. Every once in a while, from excessive heart beat, i catch myself. I see my raw red fingers with non-existence nails and my insane rapid breath. But Dont care, and allow myself to fall back into the trance. I still can't get over it.
I know its just another 'actor wanting to go artistic director' movie. But it got to me. I can't help it, it really got to me. You see this Nazi, Raciest, Raper Murderer and you just fall in love with him. What a mind fucker, plus a heart squisher.
The last time i had an entry like this (probably 5 to 6 ones back) it was also a Sean Penn movie. He has now beaten everyone to the top of my Best Actor list.
I think i have deprived myself from films and today my body was reminding me how much i miss it!
On a separate note. I am actually enjoying teenline. Met some fellow Elijah Wood obsessors and Hobbit lovers. Its just great. They are all going to the Gonnies tomorrow as well. Who is actually going out of all of you guys? And also Who heard loveline last night(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)?
I know its just another 'actor wanting to go artistic director' movie. But it got to me. I can't help it, it really got to me. You see this Nazi, Raciest, Raper Murderer and you just fall in love with him. What a mind fucker, plus a heart squisher.
The last time i had an entry like this (probably 5 to 6 ones back) it was also a Sean Penn movie. He has now beaten everyone to the top of my Best Actor list.
I think i have deprived myself from films and today my body was reminding me how much i miss it!
On a separate note. I am actually enjoying teenline. Met some fellow Elijah Wood obsessors and Hobbit lovers. Its just great. They are all going to the Gonnies tomorrow as well. Who is actually going out of all of you guys? And also Who heard loveline last night(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)?