Fic 5: Acceptance 3a/3

[rgcraeg]

"Hey, Sam," Jack tried through the dim shadows of their bedroom. "Are you awake?"

Rolling to her side, Sam glanced at the notepad on his lap. "How far are you?" Her hair was as flat as her tone. She struggled a minute with the blankets, which he was sitting on top of, oblivious to her distress. "Jack," she warned, "move."

Jack's eyes lifted

Comments

[wanderingsmith]

I love how he sees the school the way he would have as a child. that the fact that it is the boy he most wants to impress who is within that makes it more intimidating than any Goa'uld throne room or dungeon. Far more intimidating than a president that he spends his career keeping out of trouble and fixing the foolishness of through blood sweat and tears

[rgcraeg]

Yeah, I think that's Jack through and through, bc the Goa'uld are just another enemy and it's all military tactics and big guns, but a kid? He's still a kid himself and I think he'd approach fatherhood with this mix of awe, everyday-Jackisms and shear terror

[wanderingsmith]

lol, I happen to like hearing how people think :)

I'd add that the people who took him under their wing.. or put themselves under his, probably had an effect. daniel and sam both had a very stubborn positive streak and he connected to them.. in a way leading him on the first step of the same journey you describe with his son.

having people he feels care for and is a litlte impressed with look up to him.. would both scare him.. and slowly tilt him t o try to live up to them.

and Teal'c both brothering him to a different kind of strength.. and looking for that hope outside of hope that a survivor like jack has

[rgcraeg]

Oh yeah, for sure. One of those perfect examples of how life gives you all the tools to make yourself better at just the right time. He had the opportunity to shift into a roll not so...demanding, mentally, and suddenly there are people around that he can connect with and are willing to fight with and for him.

And it's just like you said, the fact that now he has people that do look up to him, as a friend and a leader, and bc he cares about them, he does his best not to let them down. And honestly, some of the most poignent moments on that show are when he (feels like he) *has* let them down (off the top of my head: Daniel, after he shoots the replicator girl)

[wanderingsmith]

yeah. RDA did angst as o'neill so damn well...