It is mroe super love!
I am so very tired I must say. I think I should honestly just go to bed earlier it seems. Well gotta work tommorow. Today was an okay day. My friends birthday is tomorrow so I am very much looking forward to it.
It doesn't seem that my journal was found out so I'm like whatever you know. So sleepy. I hope I don't have to see "them" again. My friend asked me today to invite them to her party and I was like, er welll umm err "heck no!" in my head. But she's my good friend so I didn't want to upset her by saying no. I was able to reason with her though and compare it to her having to invite someone she didn't care much for. When I told her that it was all understood.
It stinks to be the ostracized one you know. But when you are doing the things of God the devil gets into other people. It's terrible but people always seem to allow the devil to use them you know. If they didn't maybe they wouldn't think so negatively and cruelly of others. Gah it makes me wanna strangle them for 5 seconds then vanish so they couldn't get me back. I'm kind of evil often on occasion with my anger. I think I want those people to suffer and I want to take delight in their hardships. I think "you deserve it so..." but that kind of thinking I promptly straighten up.
I used to think that about my ex-boyfriend who I am still a little in love with. Maybe it has been two years and I've been forgotten. I shouldn't have just let him go but maybe I should have. You know they say about people once a cheater, always a cheater. If that's true then it's best to forget him. Though I can't deny I have a preference for white guys you know. I think it's cause of him. I remember how his hair felt and how I loved his peach fingers laced in mine.
I have always loved more than anything the unity between black people and white people. It just fills me up with so much joy and I just. Ohh I love it!!! I love how in the civil rights movement they were hand in hand.
More than anything I do believe that it was white folks who are the true reason black people have all their rights today. They didn't have any reason to help black people except for the simple fact that it was the right thing to do. They faced even more hardships (which aren't really talked about) from their own kind. Imagine how much harder it is to be surrounded by the very people you are fighting against. If they don't accept you and you are thrown out of their stores and churches and the like then you have to go into the other races neighborhoods and what do they do there, they treat you badly call you "that white man or white woman" and stare at you and you sometimes have reverse racism towards you. That's truly a hard life to live.
So white people who fought for black rights have so much more respect in my eyes. I just wish they could be honored more! Nobody seems to talk about it as much. But I love all people I just hate injustice. I seem to single out whoever is not being paid attention to and fight for their rights.
Like the genocide in Darfur but once it became a big issue and everyone started talking about it I felt I needed to move onto the next thing that people didn't really know about. Fighting for the little man yup that's me Michelle ^.^
It doesn't seem that my journal was found out so I'm like whatever you know. So sleepy. I hope I don't have to see "them" again. My friend asked me today to invite them to her party and I was like, er welll umm err "heck no!" in my head. But she's my good friend so I didn't want to upset her by saying no. I was able to reason with her though and compare it to her having to invite someone she didn't care much for. When I told her that it was all understood.
It stinks to be the ostracized one you know. But when you are doing the things of God the devil gets into other people. It's terrible but people always seem to allow the devil to use them you know. If they didn't maybe they wouldn't think so negatively and cruelly of others. Gah it makes me wanna strangle them for 5 seconds then vanish so they couldn't get me back. I'm kind of evil often on occasion with my anger. I think I want those people to suffer and I want to take delight in their hardships. I think "you deserve it so..." but that kind of thinking I promptly straighten up.
I used to think that about my ex-boyfriend who I am still a little in love with. Maybe it has been two years and I've been forgotten. I shouldn't have just let him go but maybe I should have. You know they say about people once a cheater, always a cheater. If that's true then it's best to forget him. Though I can't deny I have a preference for white guys you know. I think it's cause of him. I remember how his hair felt and how I loved his peach fingers laced in mine.
I have always loved more than anything the unity between black people and white people. It just fills me up with so much joy and I just. Ohh I love it!!! I love how in the civil rights movement they were hand in hand.
More than anything I do believe that it was white folks who are the true reason black people have all their rights today. They didn't have any reason to help black people except for the simple fact that it was the right thing to do. They faced even more hardships (which aren't really talked about) from their own kind. Imagine how much harder it is to be surrounded by the very people you are fighting against. If they don't accept you and you are thrown out of their stores and churches and the like then you have to go into the other races neighborhoods and what do they do there, they treat you badly call you "that white man or white woman" and stare at you and you sometimes have reverse racism towards you. That's truly a hard life to live.
So white people who fought for black rights have so much more respect in my eyes. I just wish they could be honored more! Nobody seems to talk about it as much. But I love all people I just hate injustice. I seem to single out whoever is not being paid attention to and fight for their rights.
Like the genocide in Darfur but once it became a big issue and everyone started talking about it I felt I needed to move onto the next thing that people didn't really know about. Fighting for the little man yup that's me Michelle ^.^