hmm.....wow

[rfmcclanahan]

Essentially, things have changed a lot since my last entry. I'll tell you now that what you see here is hardly half of what I'm feeling. Whereas before I felt I had figured out what I wanted in life, now I have an internal conflict between helping others in society and leaving societal life behind to live the way that seems wonderful to me. I'm still very happy right now, and in fact I still want what I wanted before, and though I feel I may have to compromise my dreams, I also know that they are not impossible to achieve, so no hope has been lost. (yeah, actually this sounds nothing like any of my other entries, yet another example of how things of changed :9) But there are some things that haven't changed at all...like the previously mentioned happiness, along with all of my feelings about my dreams specifically and those about several other things. (yeah, abstractness..rocking :D) I'm eating wheat thins right now! Isn't that great? Oh you know it is. Those conflicts are not the only ones I have right now, but the others are smaller have subsided tonight, I feel they may end. So yay!!

:)#++< <---- please never ever ask me what that is :D