Integrated Kids
rosamgj once asked what makes one an Integrated Kid. By and large, it's having gone through Integrated. But that's not all, nor is it necessarily a prerequisite. We had a post-Cell party in Namita's room, to which Alex Roberts showed up. Despite never having taken a class cross listed in more than three departments, Alex is definitely an Integrated Kid-because he wants to be. That's really it, I think.
After everyone had gone, myself and the two named people above had a great conversation about love, unrequited love, and requited love that is doomed from the start. And it was depressing, somewhat... but uplifting, because other people are going through exactly the same thing.
I had thought I was over The Past (capital T, capital P, names changed to protect... well, because I felt like it). But I've realized in the last few months that I'm really not. Which is a problem, because it's preventing me from enjoying the now, from finding the really interesting choices. Or maybe it's not, and I wouldn't have taken those choices anyways. I certainly don't feel like there are leads I'm not pursuing specifically because of her, but I wonder how deeply I've been affected by it.
I'm drunk, happy, sad, enjoying life, and depressed, and probably shouldn't hit the "Post" button... but here goes!
After everyone had gone, myself and the two named people above had a great conversation about love, unrequited love, and requited love that is doomed from the start. And it was depressing, somewhat... but uplifting, because other people are going through exactly the same thing.
I had thought I was over The Past (capital T, capital P, names changed to protect... well, because I felt like it). But I've realized in the last few months that I'm really not. Which is a problem, because it's preventing me from enjoying the now, from finding the really interesting choices. Or maybe it's not, and I wouldn't have taken those choices anyways. I certainly don't feel like there are leads I'm not pursuing specifically because of her, but I wonder how deeply I've been affected by it.
I'm drunk, happy, sad, enjoying life, and depressed, and probably shouldn't hit the "Post" button... but here goes!