argh.
Just when I thought it was safe to come out of my hole. Sucks how you'll enjoy life for a month, maybe two, and then it just gets all hellish again. Oh well, I've come to expect it. Another night, another fight with my parents regarding college stuff. I mean, they make valid points in that I need to just finish college, but their efforts to "motivate" me are fully counter productive. I guess it just goes back to how they were raised. It's been 24 years, and they still haven't realized that they can't raise me as if we were back in b'desh. Oh well, they are still my parents, and I do my best to try and respect them, but they're fucking psycho right now. They're in some kind of frenzy b/c they see all these guys who are only a couple of years older than me getting married. So I'm sure all their friends are asking about when it's gonna be my turn. So they're thinking that if they push me through college real quick, they'll get me married off before I get "too old." They're too chicken to mention anything about it directly, but I can tell it's on their minds. fuck all that shit though.
Basically, I'm not ready to go back and I'm putting my foot down b/c I'm tired of letting them push me around when it comes to school matters. Soon enough I'll be ready, and then I'll go back. It's just how I am, i'm the biggest bum till I get motivated from within. Once that happens, I actually follow through like you wouldn't believe. For instance, I broke my leg, got out of shape. It stayed like that for 2 years. But when I started hitting the gym earlier this year, I made a decision within that I was going to get back into shape. Now less than 6 months later, i'm 30lb lighter, and in pretty good shape. If I continue, I'll be in the best shape of my life ever by this december. I'm hoping to accomplish that before I start school- my workout time will be severly limited by classes etc. I also want to establish some personal savings before I start in school again. The only support I ask my parents for is just to be patient, but apparently that's too much to ask for. They make empty promises stating that they will take care of everything if I go back, but I know that's a damn lie.
eventually, I'll prove them wrong, like I always do.
Basically, I'm not ready to go back and I'm putting my foot down b/c I'm tired of letting them push me around when it comes to school matters. Soon enough I'll be ready, and then I'll go back. It's just how I am, i'm the biggest bum till I get motivated from within. Once that happens, I actually follow through like you wouldn't believe. For instance, I broke my leg, got out of shape. It stayed like that for 2 years. But when I started hitting the gym earlier this year, I made a decision within that I was going to get back into shape. Now less than 6 months later, i'm 30lb lighter, and in pretty good shape. If I continue, I'll be in the best shape of my life ever by this december. I'm hoping to accomplish that before I start school- my workout time will be severly limited by classes etc. I also want to establish some personal savings before I start in school again. The only support I ask my parents for is just to be patient, but apparently that's too much to ask for. They make empty promises stating that they will take care of everything if I go back, but I know that's a damn lie.
eventually, I'll prove them wrong, like I always do.