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I'm in a ROTTEN mood...no real reason for it, I just am. Everything just seems so overwhelming today. I think the main reason is because I need to get a plane ticket, but have no idea of my return date. And I have to make a decision...I wish it wasn't a million dollars to come back home! (or to come back to Australia). If it was $300, it would make this all a lot easier.
I also think I am in a bad mood because I am a dog owner. No one was able to take Winston on a walk yesterday, and I SHOULD right now, but I just don't feel like taking a walk. I don't like the feeling of HAVING to take a walk...this is why I don't want kids - I don't like feeling obligated.
On the other hand, poor Winston never asked to be here, and why should he suffer for my selfishness? I wish Jon would realize that he needs to take some responsibility for Winston, besides feeding him - he seems to think that Winston can just exist in the backyard by himself. I think that's wrong. He's the one who begged and begged for a dog! And now that we have a dog, it gets scant attention from him.
Taking the dog out would involve putting on my "Little Buster" outfit of too big jeans, t-shirt, and sneakers. THis is what i HAVE to wear most of the of the day at my job...I'm sick of wearing those ugly unflattering things. In fact, some of you have heard my motto, "Life is too short to wear ugly clothes".
Winston also smells dreadful - he was running around the yard in the rain last night, so he's got that wet dog smell. THat smell is in my top three most hated smells ever...so I can't really have him in the house even.
So here I am, ridden with guilt and obligation. Is this how you're supposed to feel about pets?
I want a cat!!!!
I also think I am in a bad mood because I am a dog owner. No one was able to take Winston on a walk yesterday, and I SHOULD right now, but I just don't feel like taking a walk. I don't like the feeling of HAVING to take a walk...this is why I don't want kids - I don't like feeling obligated.
On the other hand, poor Winston never asked to be here, and why should he suffer for my selfishness? I wish Jon would realize that he needs to take some responsibility for Winston, besides feeding him - he seems to think that Winston can just exist in the backyard by himself. I think that's wrong. He's the one who begged and begged for a dog! And now that we have a dog, it gets scant attention from him.
Taking the dog out would involve putting on my "Little Buster" outfit of too big jeans, t-shirt, and sneakers. THis is what i HAVE to wear most of the of the day at my job...I'm sick of wearing those ugly unflattering things. In fact, some of you have heard my motto, "Life is too short to wear ugly clothes".
Winston also smells dreadful - he was running around the yard in the rain last night, so he's got that wet dog smell. THat smell is in my top three most hated smells ever...so I can't really have him in the house even.
So here I am, ridden with guilt and obligation. Is this how you're supposed to feel about pets?
I want a cat!!!!