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Lately I've been feelings more and more isolated from my peers. About 5% of them actually understand the issues I've been dealing with, while 95% of them say they understand, and proceed to make me feel like shit over everything I have zero control over. I'm so done with highschool, I barely survived it the first time and now I feel like I'm right back in there. I feel like there aren't very many people who can relate to the things that are going on in my life, actually I can count the people who do on one hand.
I don't get disability cheques - I have to work for my money, and I don't want to spend it entirely frivolously; I consider my spending frivolous enough as it is.
I'm moving across the country, all by my lonesome. I have to learn a new language, contact embassies and consulates and go through a shit load of bureaucratic garbage on a day-to-day basis. I DON'T HAVE TIME!
Clubbing is fun, drinking is fun, going out to the bar is fun; but, I'm finished with getting knocked off my ass. I feel like the only one who knows my limit and is able to cut myself off at this point in life. I feel like everyone's mom at 14 years old, you know, peeling their daughter off the bathroom floor, getting called a bitch for saying "You need to get up right now, this isn't where you want to go to sleep tonight" and then paying for a cab. No appreciation for it. I'm going to buy my mom some flowers or something, because that's bullshit and I never want to deal with that ever again. I feel like I shouldn't have to though, because my friends aren't 14 year old idiots who can't hold a mickey of smirnoff, but alas, now their 21-23 year olds who can't hold a 26 or 40 pounder of smirnoff. Ughhh.
I'm fed up, have a pacemaker, real-life stress like debts and visa payments, immigration woes, and honestly? I just don't have the patience for it anymore, I'm at the point where I feel like if there are friends who give me more grief over nothing, then I just can't be friends with them anymore.
I don't get disability cheques - I have to work for my money, and I don't want to spend it entirely frivolously; I consider my spending frivolous enough as it is.
I'm moving across the country, all by my lonesome. I have to learn a new language, contact embassies and consulates and go through a shit load of bureaucratic garbage on a day-to-day basis. I DON'T HAVE TIME!
Clubbing is fun, drinking is fun, going out to the bar is fun; but, I'm finished with getting knocked off my ass. I feel like the only one who knows my limit and is able to cut myself off at this point in life. I feel like everyone's mom at 14 years old, you know, peeling their daughter off the bathroom floor, getting called a bitch for saying "You need to get up right now, this isn't where you want to go to sleep tonight" and then paying for a cab. No appreciation for it. I'm going to buy my mom some flowers or something, because that's bullshit and I never want to deal with that ever again. I feel like I shouldn't have to though, because my friends aren't 14 year old idiots who can't hold a mickey of smirnoff, but alas, now their 21-23 year olds who can't hold a 26 or 40 pounder of smirnoff. Ughhh.
I'm fed up, have a pacemaker, real-life stress like debts and visa payments, immigration woes, and honestly? I just don't have the patience for it anymore, I'm at the point where I feel like if there are friends who give me more grief over nothing, then I just can't be friends with them anymore.